So I have 55 days until my wedding, and a week and a half ago I had one of my parents pass away, very very suddenly, she was only 50. She was also like a father to me, my mom is a complete mess, and I have no desire to do any of the little details of my wedding. Last week I was supposed to get my invites in the mail, but now they're being delayed and I'm working on them now. The RSVP date is Sept. 8th and I'm afraid that's not enough time for my guests to RSVP...but whatevs. I'm dealing with a whole host of emotions right now and I'm not sure how to deal with them. I'm super stressed out of with the little details, I'm grieving, dealing with the shock of losing a parent who wasn't sick and was only 50! And I'm dealing with my mom who's falling to pieces and doesn't want to even think about wedding details. I'm not sure how to make my wedding happy, when all it's going to do is bring up super sad memories that my parent isn't there to see me get married. UGH! This is not okay. I thought about postponing our wedding, but we'd lose out so much money at this point, and she wouldn't have wanted that. :-( This is not fair and not okay!!!
Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with any of this??? :-( I've resigned myself to the fact that my guests will understand the tardy-ness of the invites, so I'm not super super stressed about that, but I know it has to get done ASAP. I'm just trying to figure out how to deal with everything else. my mom was going to walk me down the aisle to begin with, but I was going to have a Poppy/Daughter dance (with her) and a father/daughter dance with my biological father. I'm not sure how to do a father/daughter dance with my dad without making everyone super sad and bawling. :-( How do I make my wedding a joyous occasion and not another funeral full of sad memories???