I've been a fucking mess this week and I feel like I need support from someone who's not also going through it. Or Fi, because he's not here.
We just found out that my beloved grampa has AIDs. We believe he's been living a double life for at least ten years, cheating on my grandma with various men.
Also, no, we don't think men because gay=AIDs. It's other 'evidence' throughout the years that we've all been too blind to see.
Grandma is negitive, thank god, but she's distraught. He won't admit to any cheating, but we all know. Grandma refuses to admit that she knows, and we have to respect her decision to stay blind.
I'm so angry, and heart broken. They've been together for 50 years, and this is how he treats her? She's had fucking seven of his kids, and been nothing but wonderful, and he exposes her to a deadly dieses and cheats on her? I'm beyond myself. I don't know who this man is. He helped raise me, and I'm disgusted by him. Who this person is is not the grandfather I love.
We're going down to their house for Thanksgiving, and I don't know if I can look at him. My mom has asked to try to ask normally to him for my grandmother's sake, but I honestly don't think I can.
Fi's out of town for work this week and I've just been crying nonstop. I guess I just need to tell someone who doesn't actually know me.