My FI and I have a very close knit group of friends, 5 of us total (3 guys 2 girls). We do everything together and all even lived in the same apartment complex at one point. This other couple that we know and sometimes hangs out in our group got engaged in July and recently choose their wedding party. I have had a feeling for a while that this newly engaged girl preferred my friend over me. Why I'm not sure.
Last weekend her FI gave "Will you be by groomsmen?" gifts to the three guys of our group including my FI. My FI and the groom are not even close. When she didn't give my friend her "Be my Bridesmaid gift" I told my friend it was because she didn't want to do it in front of me because I'm not in her wedding. My friend tried to give the girl the benefit of the doubt saying that "she wouldn't have one of us and not the other". The next week came and that newly engaged girl went out of her way to travel from Austin to Houston to see my friend to give her the official "Be my bridesmaid gift" When my friend asked why I wasn't a part of the WP she said "she just didn't have enough room for everyone"
I mean its her wedding she can do what she wants but I still have this feeling that she shouldn't have taken a group of 5 close friends and only choose 4 for her wedding including my FI. Now I'm dreading this wedding because I won't know anyone else at the ceremony or the cocktail hour afterwards and won't know if I get to go to the rehearsal dinner with my FI. My FI asked me if I wanted him to back out. I told him he could do whatever he wants. I just feel hurt still. I feel like she should taken only 3 if she couldn't have all of us so it wouldn't be so obvious that 1 person was excluded.
In my mind this girl has no interest in a friendship with me. Over the past year she has time and time again shown me that she only hangs out with me because of our other friends. I was actually thinking of asking her to be in my wedding until all of this happened.
Are my feelings justified? Or am I just being immature? I don't know if I should even go to the wedding or any of the events (showers, bachelorette party etc)I don't want her to invite me because she feels like she has to instead of because she wants me there.