Does anyone else flip flop on the idea of having a wedding?

Greenjinjo

At the moment I'm personally flipping between having a small wedding (40ish people, budget $10kNZD), an elopement or a courthouse affair. One day my heart is set on one but the next day I hate the idea of it. I think my biggest problem is I don't know if I'm okay with forking out a lot of money for what will be just essentially a big party. This will definitely be a future problem for future greenjinjo and Mr greenjinjo to work through...