(Sorry to keep coming to you with my speshul snowflakeness, guys.)
I had lunch with one of my former bridesmaids so I could give her her gift before she goes into labor in what feels like two minutes from now (so excited!). She said that she was talking with my cousins (other bridesmaids) and they still wanted to host the shower for me.
My instincts immediately say no... no one attending the shower will be at the wedding except for one cousin, my mom and MIL, and my SIL. And the shower will be after the wedding anyway, so it would no longer truly be a "bridal" shower. I hate the idea that I would be asking for gifts for an event they technically weren't invited to, even if they were invited to the original wedding (of course).
I think I understand where they are coming from... they feel bad because I had the traditional bride experience pulled out from under me and want to give the shower as a way to make our rearranged plans more special. (Although I am actually incredibly excited about our new wedding!) My mom and SIL also support the idea so I feel a little pressured.
It's not that I don't want the party itself, but the gift part makes me uncomfortable. People have already raised money for us, given me almost $500 in visa gift cards, bought us food, offered help with building ramps and remodeling our bathrooms, places to stay, etc. etc. I feel like getting kitchen supplies and bath towels feels kinda cheap or weird or tacky in a situation like this. Materialistic, almost.
What are your thoughts?