My future husband and I are really looking forward to our wedding but one thing that keeps stressing me out is our wedding party. He is a very social person and absolutely loves making friends, which he has a ton of. I, however, am very antisocial and prefer to not make friends, which is why I have none. The last time I tried the whole friendship thing was about 3 years ago and it ended horribly. I am honestly fed up with investing time and energy into friendships that never seem to work out one way or another. Now that I'm getting married, this is a problem. I know your bridesmaids are supposed to be the people that you are close to and want to have stand by you on your big day but no one meets that standard for me. I have no sisters, I either don't like my cousins or they are way too young, and I have no friends of either gender (for those who were about to suggest any male sides). I feel like the title of "mother of the bride" is too special to ask my mom to be a bridesmaid too, out of not wanting to take that away from her. My only option is my fiancee's teenage sister, whom I hardly know and I feel like I'd only be asking her out of obligation. I also know she wouldn't want to be the only girl standing up there as she is 17 and immensely self-conscious and insecure with herself.
I know it would break my fiancee's heart to ask him not to have a wedding party at all because he loves his guys like they were his brothers. He shouldn't have to sacrafice what he is so excited for due to my lack of socializing. So I'm forced now to throw together some type of bridesmaids assembly to keep everyone but me happy or brave my side alone up there and have his be filled with anywhere from 3-6 guys. My mom has argued that I need to have somebody up there with me, at least a maid of honor. She's insisting I fill it with my aunt (who is in her mid 30s) as my maid of honor, my future SIL, and my two cousins who are 16 and 9. However, I don't want that. I've already begun the process of accepting being up there alone because I really don't want to settle on having people I'm not close to. How bad would it look to be standing up there alone with no bridesmaids and only have groomsmen on my fiancee's side? Another suggestion I've seen made is splitting the groomsmen to stand on both sides but I really don't know them either and they are my fiancee's friends; they're going to want to stand and support his side. I know people are going to talk and judge but I just don't know how bad it'll come across. I'm really at a loss of what to do. Serious help is needed.
P.S. please no comments asking me about my disinterest in making friends, I've seen too many threads that look like therapy sessions and I want to stay focused on the problem at hand. I just need feedback and reassurance on what to do. Thank you!