First off I’ll start out with we have been together for 9 years. We have a 2 yo and 1 yo together. We tried on engagement rings 4+ years ago but it never went anywhere. ( I’ve never been pushy in anyway) Last March we went again and I knew he would be buying a ring in the near future. Well he did, and he held on to it for 10 months! He ended up proposing on NYE in a corner of our garage. A week after his grandma had passed away from Covid, while we were leaving some money for my mom (to travel out of state to visit his mom due to the passing). I was Instantly underwhelmed and 3 months later I’m still having a hard time knowing the moment has passed and I’ll never get it back. We’ve made many memories together and I just feel he could have done ANYTHING else for it to be more meaningful. I’m trying to get passed it, but really struggling.