Hump Day

ei34

How’s everyone today?

Happy birthday @VarunaTT  🎉 

ei34

@Casadena hope your H did okay at home overnight 

The Harlem Wizards game was a lot of fun, they had the kids cracking up. DD was proud of her national anthem performance with her ensemble group. Tired today, but worth it. 

This is always a weird day for me bc it’s the day I told exH I was filing for divorce. What followed were months of awful post separation abuse, but things were really bad immediately following. And now I get this pit in my stomach late Feb/early March. If I still feel anxiety years from now when I’m retired I’ll take a vacation or something, bc it always feels a bit strange going through my normal motions. (But I’d like to think the feeling will fade with time, it’s only been four years.)

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Casadena

Thanks @ei34, he seems to be doing ok. We slept in separate rooms because i'm still coughing quite a bit and I dont' want to worry that i'm keeping him up or coughing on him all night. I did have a 3 year old nighttime blanket bandit who climbed in with me to snuggle without waking me up. Always pretty sweet

Boys have been doing great at bedtime lately. We're working on finally not being in the room til they fall asleep. We've been doing stories, tuck in, and then as long as they're listening well and staying in their beds they get to listen to a audio book on the Yoto box they got for Christmas. They also decided randomly in the middle of chaos last week that they MUST wear undies to bed (they had both been in pull-ups) and we've been accident free the entire time. I'm so proud of them both! 

Finally back in the office after almost 2 weeks. Feels kinda good to have a normal day? Forgot my lunch so i'll have a quick errand in the middle of the day and pick something up. 

VarunaTT

@ei34 I didn't go through what you did at all, but I used to get really weird around Oct/Nov, b/c that seems to be the time my break-ups happened, both with exH and K.  It does start to fade.  First, it was just less time during that period that I felt that way, and I think this was the first year that I basically forgot and shocked myself.  It will get there, but it'll take awhile.  Big hugs, I wasn't with K as long as you were with your exH and every now and then, I'll still find something in my psyche that surprises me, that damage from K caused.  And I don't still have any connection.  I think you're doing an amazing job, your kids sound like they're thriving, and you do too.  It seems to me from the outside it was worth it and I hope it feels like that to you too.

I forgot it was my birthday and woke up to texts from mom and a few friends.  Then work sent me a message and now my co-workers are posting hilarious birthday gifs.

I stayed up too late reading last night.  I'm still working my way through Hugo Award winners.  I'm reading a book that's by one of my favorite sci-fi authors anyway, C.J. Cherryh, and just got sucked it.  I finally made myself finish a chapter and NOT. START. ANOTHER. ONE.    No big plans for the day, just working and chilling.

banana468

Happy birthday @VarunaTT!

@ei34 I have to believe you're experiencing that trauma response that plenty of people go through.  I see people post for the first few years anniversaries of the loss of loved ones and I know last year when it was the anniversary of Chiquita being hospitalized I was talking about her and felt my eyes welling up w/ tears to a fellow GS mom as we chaperoned in the Library of Congress.  

MNNEBride

Happy Birthday @VarunaTT

@Casadena - I'm glad you had an uneventful night.  How sweet of your blanket stealer not to wake you!

@ei34 - I get the same feelings each year in March/April from a traumatic resignation from my last job.  It does fade, but thinking too much about it brings back ALL the feelings.

It's been a tough week at home.  DH is on a hair trigger and blows up at the littlest things.  I suspect he's upset about his nephew (57 years old), who has rectal cancer and is at the point where chemo and radiation are no longer options.  Hospice has been suggested.  Fortunately, DH is pleasant between the blow-ups, but it's just hard when they are directed at me.  

The cleaning person was scheduled for today but woke with a migraine so she's coming tomorrow afternoon.  My brother is coming here Friday afternoon to take care of some handyman things.  Saturday, we are going to visit his sister at her care center.  

levioosa

Happy Birthday!!!! @VarunaTT

@ei34 all of the hugs. When we live in a state of fight or flight for so long our nervous system goes through the wringer. You are amazing. Do whatever you need to do for you today. 

@casadena I'm so happy to hear that bedtime is going smoothly for you guys. I know that was a huge struggle. Especially since I'm sure the routine has been thrown off with H in the hospital. And yay for no accidents! 

*Hugs* @MNNEBride

Work today. I slept in a little more than I should have but I feel loads better than yesterday. Yesterday I had a no show and I took a little cat nap at my desk for 20 minutes. I am not a napper and I fell asleep instantly which means I was donzo. Otherwise SSDD. Grandpa is still in the hospital but things are relatively unchanged. I think they'll probably discharge him today. My uncle extended his trip to Saturday and selfishly I really wish he had extended it through the weekend so I could fully enjoy my birthday without worrying about someone watching the Grandparents. Hopefully my mom or Aunt can stop by on Sunday and Monday. 

ei34

Thank you everyone for the kind words. And for the support, today and then 🫶🏻

@Casadena yay for the smooth bedtimes, that’s huge!
@MNNEBride that is so hard, all the hugs 

short+sassy

Excited to get over a week off from work and do some traveling!  While completely avoiding all the Mardi Gras hassle around NOLA that will be going on through Tuesday.  But Tuesday is a work holiday, so at least that saves me one vacation day.

Though at the moment I am frazzled and stressed.  I'm always like that the before and day of a trip.  Thankfully it's a super mellow WFH day.  I really need it because my H and I need to pack and get organized.  I need to make a lunch target with nice ambience for when we arrive in Charleston, so I have something positive to focus on and be the first thing I look forward to.  

I spent the morning on the couch with my work computer on, but didn't need to do anything.  After lunch, I moved to my work desk to get the little bit of work I need to do finished.  Then it's back to the work computer "on", jic.  But I'll mainly be packing and cleaning up.