Well we had a long discussion last night. I'm honestly not sure if anything was really solved, but I told him how I was feeling. I told him that he should be wanting to spend every moment with me when I am home since we only see eachother a few days per month since we're LD. He brought up the fact that I need to spend time with my family when I'm home (since it's rare I come home- usually he comes to visit me). I agree that I do need to spend time with my family, but said that's not the point- he should WANT to spend every moment with me since we rarely see each other. In the end, he saw what I meant and said that he does want to spend every moment with me, but doesn't NEED to if I want to see my family or whatever, that's fine.
Then we talked about this weekend, and he admitted he was wrong, and he said he will hang out with me all day Sunday (other than church in the morning because he sings up front with his brother which is fine). But then he brought up the fact that his dad got tickets to a comedian for Sunday night (ummm...) and said that he really wants to go. I asked if I was invited, and he didn't know. Then I asked if I am not invited, will you still go without me? He said no, he wouldn't because I'm home. However, it feels like he was just saying that and that during the comedian thing he'll be all grouchy because he didn't go, and I don't want to feel like I forced him to stay home and watch a movie with me. I feel like he doesn't WANT to spend all day every day with me when we're together, which bothers me. I feel like he just is doing that this weekend because I'm pissed off. But, I dont know. Maybe he actually does want to...
I don't know what to do right now. Although we had a good conversation, nothing was really 'solved'. Oh, I suggested (I think yaga or desert suggested it?) that when I am home we don't need to have 'plans', our whole weekend is automatically planned to be together (at least that's how it should be). So, if someone asks either of us to hang out or what they're doing, our answer should be that our fiance is home so we'd see them after they left since we don't see each other often. I told him that if it's something important, we can discuss, but I cannot be TOLD what he is doing especially when I'm only home for the weekend. He seemed to understand.
In the end, we hugged, I cried, and I left. I'm not really sure what to do because I don't know if he is just 'saying' he understands but really he doesn't care and thinks he shoudl be able to spend time with whoever whenever even though I'm only home a few weekends a month? I don't know. I guess throughout the weekend I'll see how real he is about it.
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