There seems to be a very disturbing number of child deaths in the news. I know that it isn't "new" , unfiortunately but I just don't understand some of the atrocities affecting these innocent victims. The latest is a child killed over taking a POPSICLE from a freezer without permission - who was also living with TWELVE other kids. The child was locked in a closet or trunk as punishment among other things that turn my stomach. I don't know it it's my infertility issues that gets me so emotional over these things or just my compassionate nature or both , but it really truly makes me sad and I don't believe anyone deserves thias treatment , child or adult - though I do wish the guilty parties would have to suffer in the same manner.
As much as I want my own kids naturally , I can't help but feel like there are so many kids already without homes from all ages that need a home just as much but I also know not everyone can do adoption whether for personal or financial reasons. However what does bother me , and this will sound backwards to several I am sure , that if you can naturally have kids without outside assistance there is no red tape to go through unlike adoption where your whole life is put under a microscope - at least under any reputable agency - and I have no issue with that in itself , but why does it take something to happen or a death for someone to take notice of everything. It feels like sometimes a double standard - that just because my body or someone else's dosent work normally I know there are many MORE good foster and adoptive and naturall birth parents out there that are a blessing to so many lives. It just makes me sad because it isn't a crime to not want kids - at least give them a chance they deserve before it's too late.
Just thoughts on my mind late at night