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  • I confess that I told my boss/coworker yesterday that I wasn't going to quit and I wasn't looking for another job, but I lied. I filled out an online survey for an awesome organic grocery delivery service here (operational controller position) but then SParky got sick and I never finished updating my resume and sending it in. They called me just now and asked me for a phone interview tomorrow morning. I have to go home at lunch and finish my resume and send it. AHHHHH! I might be getting out of here and going on to bigger and better things! YAY!

    Even if it doesn't work out, at least I know I was good at answering their questions and there is a job out there for me somewhere!



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    [QUOTE]In Response to Re: confessions : Fvck yeah, I cut my M into three parts. We put all the chocolate in the storage closet so each time I wanted another piece I had to go back in there to get it. I made a point to eat it slowly - or at least as slowly as I can - that is something I am trying to work on.  I appear to suffer from this notion that if I don't eat all my food really quickly it will somehow disappear, like someone is going to steal it from me or something, which is ridiculous, so one of the things I am trying to work on is eating slowly. I appear to eat things more quickly when I know they aren't good for me - out of guilt I am sure. So if I am chosing to eat something that isn't healthy, I make a point in savouring it, otherwise, what's the point?
    Posted by number55[/QUOTE]

    That reminds me of the Mitch Hedberg standup where he said he wished that you could eat something healthy with something unhealthy and they'd counteract each other. Like if you ate a carrot with an onion ring, when they got to your stomach, the carrot would like "It's ok, he's with me".
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  • Just stepped into this thread, but wanted to shout CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!! to Steph. :) That's awesome!
  • Good luck sarah! Looking at myself in the bathroom just now I realized part of why I think I look like shiit is my hair, I think the curly aspect makes me look "messy" but I'm too lazy to straighten it. I also would never permenantly straighten my hair, but I wish it was straight. I confuse myself.
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    edited January 2012
    Numbers, have you considered counseling?  I'm not asking because I think that there is anything "wrong" with you that you can't overcome on your own.  On the contrary, I admire you for a lot of reasons, including your personal strength. 

    It's just that when I expressed feelings similar to yours to my trainer, he told me that he couldn't do a "damn thing" for my body unless I also worked through the issues afflicting my mind (emotional eating and the feelings of hopelessness, shame and remorse that come with it -- a familiar theme for a lot of women, I'm sure).  By focusing one on and neglecting the other, he said, I was sabotaging my efforts in the long run.  He words stuck with me, and I really wish I'd taken his advice more to heart. 
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  • I'm confessing and running, but I'm SO ANGRY today, and it's all for relatively mundane reasons (I'm angry at Mayo for not calling me back from 2 weeks ago and 3 days ago, respectively, and I'm angry at a goof up with my old job on my last two checks).

    A normal person would be irritated with these things.  I feel like a crazy person because I am seething mad, and I seriously just want to scream at someone.  I can't understand why I'm so angry about it, and it kind of freaks me out. 

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  • I don't know if this is really a confession but my boss just accidentally put a student on speakerphone and my coworker and I could hear it. Hot damn, she is pissed. Lots o' swears. I don't know how my boss can remain so calm and collected. I would have hung up on her in a hot second. She is a problem student though.
  • I just tried to talk H into doing a day of just to do nothing, and he said he didn't want to waste vacation time on that.  I might have started to tear up a little.  Mental health days are important, damnit!
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  • To play off of Mara's- I actually liked getting those IRATE students when I still worked 1:1 with them on campus.  It was kind of a sense of pride to me that I wouldn't lose my cool... and 9/10 times they would hang up 'satisfied'.  Or at least understanding what happened and why it wasn't our fault their housing was effed up.
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    [QUOTE]I just tried to talk H into doing a day of just to do nothing, and he said he didn't want to waste vacation time on that.  I might have started to tear up a little.  Mental health days are important, damnit!
    Posted by adamar15[/QUOTE]

    They really are!  I finally convinced H to take a day off randomly around the holidays. (he has a crap ton of PTO that he's going to lose anyway.)  If you can do it responsibly, why not?
  • Sometimes I resent H's job because he can make his own hours, take long lunches, sleep in, work fewer hours, and still get paid more than me per hour. But then I remember that if I lost my job or quit, that I could work for him and still pay the bills. So that kind of helps me get over it.

    Good luck, sarah!

    Marrin, I think I'm going to look into both of those. I was hoping it would just go away, but today I have stabbing pains in my thumb, so, so much for that.

    Numbers, I think you are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
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    [QUOTE]In Response to Re: confessions : They really are!  I finally convinced H to take a day off randomly around the holidays. (he has a crap ton of PTO that he's going to lose anyway.)  <strong>If you can do it responsibly, why not?
    </strong>Posted by Steph0871[/QUOTE]

    That's my thought!  I'm not talking about calling out tomorrow, I would just like to schedule a day in the near future.  I might talk to him about it more tonight.  Or I'll take a day by myself.  That would be glorious too. 

    Congratulations on the blueberry! :)
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  • I'm taking next Monday off just to be with H. He will be busy doing a lab, so I'm just tagging along, but it is totally my mental health, away from the computer day.

    Also, I admit that I have food and body issues, always have. It's better since I've been with H, but sometimes the old thoughts start up again.
  • I miss my stupid XH today, and I'm mad that it's getting to me.  Then he called and I talked to him for half an hour this morning (just about life in general and how things were), which didn't help the situation at all.  Blech.
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    edited January 2012
    My confession is weird.

    Sometime I feel like creationism makes more sense in my head.  Not that I dont believe in evolution, but its so frigging complex.  I get it from a certain point. But when it goes all the way back from nothing, to organisms, etc, it is way too scientific and complicated for me to process.

    Now, im not saying its not true, im just saying in my brain, it makes more sense that the big man created us, lol.  And im not even super religious.
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  • Sometimes with being in "the business" Jackie, it makes it scarier.  It's like knowing too much is not always a good thing.  Best of luck.....and that's Valentine's Day :(
  • My confession is that this whole pregnancy thing is throwing me for a loop. I'm struggling with not feeling MEGA-EXCITED!!! and mostly just feeling tired, fat and sick. I want to be one of those omg-i-love-this-little-fetus-so-much-i-could-die kind of women, but I'm not there yet and I feel guilty.
  • Aw, Jackie.  It's okay to be scared.  But the important thing is that you're going through with it even though you're scared.  By the way, I don't know if you saw since it's pretty far down on the page now, but I paged you yesterday to let you know YGPM back.

    My confession is that while I love North Carolina (like a lot- especially since everyone up north is dealing with ridiculously low temps right now) I miss the hell out of Wisconsin.  I particularly miss being able to go up to my mom and dad's on the weekend to visit or my mom stopping down to go out to lunch with me on a random day during the week. 

    And I feel like I'm missing a lot- like my little brother getting ready to go to college and my niece growing up.  I want her to have a relationship with us but we're so far away and she's only two so I doubt she'll ever be very close to us. 
  • Sere- I don't know if you'd move across the country but northern Virginia has a TON of teaching jobs.
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  • Congratulations Steph.

    My confession is pretty lame but I want to go to the PaleyFest 2012. I'd only go to one night which would be the SOA night but I don't know if I should spend the money on it. Admittedly I don't know much about it but from what I gather is that it is sort like comic con but for certain TV shows. I would just like to see the cast and crew of the show and hear them talk about the upcoming seasons and such.
  • I confess that I just got news that 2 of my good friends from college broke up. This annoys me for 2 reasons. 1. I now have potentially invite 2 more people to the wedding (they would have been each others date). It's also more potential drama. And 2. The guy is my exboyfriend. It took him longer to get over ''us'' than me. He still had feelings for me when I first met FI even (even though it was several years (and boyfriends) later. FI knows about this and I don't want him to get worried that ex's feelings might come back now that he's single again. I don't have details on the breakup yet. I hope no one was stupid and I can keep all my friends. I hope they're both okay
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    [QUOTE]Sere- I don't know if you'd move across the country but northern Virginia has a TON of teaching jobs.
    Posted by LetsHikeToday[/QUOTE]
    SERE YOU CAN'T MOVE.

    Unless you'll be moving back to where you are now in about 5 years.  Then you can move.

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    [QUOTE]My confession is that this whole pregnancy thing is throwing me for a loop. I'm struggling with not feeling MEGA-EXCITED!!! and mostly just feeling tired, fat and sick. I want to be one of those omg-i-love-this-little-fetus-so-much-i-could-die kind of women, but I'm not there yet and I feel guilty.
    Posted by september's bride[/QUOTE]

    Yeah, this. I think my friend is annoyed with me (as is H.) I mean, I'm excited obviously, but I'm still pretty 'whatev' about it. 

    I know I know. It's like 7 months away, but still.
  • edited January 2012
    Steph congratulations on the pregnancy! That is wonderful news.  

    I confess that as much as I "want" a baby, I am relieved that I'm off the hook for at least a few more years, because I am in no way responsible enough for one now. 

    ETA: Steph and September I don't see anything wrong with that.  At this point you aren't showing right? And you must have found out recentlyish (I don't know how early you can find out so I could be way off) so it might not have sunk in yet.
  • It probably has a lot to do with that, Meg, you're right. I'm sure when I'm showing and can feel the baby moving, I will feel differently, but right now? Meh. I'm happy and all, but don't feel like a blossoming flower of pregnancy. My friends seem to think I'm heartless, but I can't help it.

    I'm very aware of the pregnancy, and I know it's real, but I guess I thought I'd be overwhelmed with fluffy love feelings, and I'm just...not.
  • Yeah, meg. I've only known for about two weeks.  But, I think it's just the way it's played up. And I have friends who REALLY wanted kids and were so "OMG I'M PREGNANT IT"S THE GREATEST THING IN THE WORLD."

    That kind of stuff I guess.
  • edited January 2012
    Yeah, I totally get that.  I think it's the moment you feel the baby kick, and you see the ultrasound and it looks like a real, yet miniature, human that you will feel it.  And then even more emotions when you hold the baby in your arms.  

    I don't think it's crazy to not feel overwhelmed just yet, and I think it's easy for others (friends, parents) to get even more excited than you, at first.  I guess I'm just saying don't feel cold-hearted about it. 

    September, you should feel something more than Steph though, I mean yours is a whole raspberry! ;) 
  • Stef- my sister was never "OMG IM PREGNANT YAY!!!!!' about either of her pregnancies.  I dont think its weird, and I dont think it means your 'not doing it right'. You dont need to run through the streets with a sign to show you are excited. 

    Some people react differently to big life stuff.
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  • Truefacts, Megbo.

    rasperberries are WAY bigger than blueberries. ha
  • I confess that even though H and I mutually agreed that we wanted to move here, I'm resentful of the fact that I had to quit my job in DC when he found a new one here before I did. I've been unemployed since June, and it sucks.  Especially since we're living with my parents until I find a job so we can have 2 incomes when we buy a house. Unemployed and living with my parents is NOT where I wanted to be at age 29. 

    I also confess that while I'm happy to be near my family again (though right now we're a little TOO near being in the same house), I miss DC like crazy and often fantasize about moving back. It's hard to make friends here when I'm not working or in school. I've made a few casual friends, but I haven't found anyone that I really "connect" with yet, ya know?

    And while I'm at it, I might as well also confess that H's student loans stress me out like whoa.  We're paying almost $800 a month for them right now, which i why we need 2 incomes before we can buy a house.  I know that he needed them, but good lord.  Every time I see the total amount that we have to pay back, I go into panic mode. 

    Wow, that was a lot of baggage to dump for internet "strangers". Embarassed
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