Terrible, horrible, no good, very bad, day. (possible TMI)

tidetravel

I'm horribly homesick.  It seems like I haven't talked to DH all weekend.  Taryn's going through some sort of phase that's stressing him out, and I'm not there to help.  Keno hasn't been interested in working the last few days - he's sulking.  He's still peeing on bags.  He's missing his targets.  He's not listening to me, at all.  My milk is drying up, despite my best efforts to keep pumping.  I can't sleep.  I have no car, and I'm bored out of my mind.

And I just burnt my mother effing mushrooms. 

There was no real point to this post.  Thank you ladies for being here for me to vent to.

Nebb

None of that sounds like good things Are you going to be able to go home any time soon?

tidetravel

Nebb - it doesn't look like I'll be able to go home at all.  DH is planning on coming down to viist the 2nd weekend in July, so that's good.  But it's still almost 3 weeks away.

RachNRich

Hi Tide, I'm new to this board. My name's Rach. I just wanted to say that I love you, and want to give you tons of hugs!! I can't begin to imagine what you're going through, or how hard it must be for you--but keep your head up; you'll be home before you know it....

Have you Skyped lately? Did Taryn seem to understand what the whole Skype thing was about (i.e. did she seem to recognize you/your voice?)?

[Deleted User]

Oh Tide, I love you. I'm so sorry you're having a shitty day. I admire you so much. I can't imagine the strength it takes you to be away from precious Taryn for as long as you have been (and will be). I just think you are so brave for making this sacrifice for you and your family. I'm sending hugs your way.

katiewhompus

That sucks I'm sorry everything seems to be piling up this week.

tidetravel

Rach, we skyped on Fri or Sat, I think.  It was bittersweet.  I could see her and talk to her, and she knew my voice, so that was good.  She kept looking around for me, though, so that was hard to watch. 

I don't think that she quite understands that mommy is in the computer.

Nebb

Im sending you hugs right now.

sarah0725

I'm sorry that things are difficult for you, Tide. I can only imagine how difficult it is to be away from your husband and baby girl.

I'm not sure I know the whole story of why you're away from home - I haven't been around enough lately to be caught up on the news. Is there an end in sight for this?

tidetravel

Thanks, everyone.  It really means a lot.  I think I just need a good cry.

RachNRich

Ha! I didn't think she would get the whole "mommy's in the computer" bit, but it's reassuring that she noticed your voice. The whole looking around for you part though, well--that just breaks my heart. you tons; I'm always around if you need someone to talk to!

tidetravel

Sarah, I'm away at training for a new position (K9 officer).  It's a job that I've wanted since I started 5 years ago, and was a rare opportunity, so I had to take it, but it meant 10 weeks of training in GA.  We just started week 3.

missy68

(((((hugs Tide))))))

[Deleted User]

Where in GA are you?

tidetravel

Cew - Newnan.  It's about 25 min south of Atlanta.

[Deleted User]

Oh man. I was hoping you were closer. I'm about 5 hours away from Atlanta. But if you're ever up for a road trip one weekend while you're there, I could definitely meet you half way.

sarah0725

Wow, that's a long time to be away from home. I'm really sorry you're feeling so sad. Sometimes a good cry is just what the doctor ordered.

tidetravel

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[QUOTE]Oh man. I was hoping you were closer. I'm about 5 hours away from Atlanta. But if you're ever up for a road trip one weekend while you're there, I could definitely meet you half way.
Posted by cew515[/QUOTE]

That's an idea :)  I'll keep that in mind.

[Deleted User]

yay! Well, if you decide you want to get out, just send me an FB message and we can make plans. I'd love to hang out.

pixiedust84

Aww Tide! You don't "know" me very well but I always love your posts and wanted to send you some love! Good cries help sometimes! I have all the respect in the world for what you are doing for yourself and for your family!! Hang in there :-)

jamiefour

I hope it goes fast for you Tide.  It is great that you are following your dream.

deepcovejackie

Oh, that's so hard!  I remember doing my residency and my baby's dad would bring her to hospital to nurse at bedtime.  This happened one night in three for the whole time she was breastfeeding.  I thought that was tough!  I know someone said to me then that it was soooo much worse for me than it was for my daughter.  That's true, for Taryn it's just a blip in her life.  For you it's soooo much harder.

Stay strong, you're taking a great opportunity in your life. 

shoegal715

So sorry to hear that. Whenever I have a shitty day, I make a point to go try and go to bed extra early. I find that getting a great night sleep usually helps a lot.

I hope tomorrow is much better for you. 

PS - is it just me or are the shitty days always on a Monday?? UGH I hate Mondays!

tidetravel

Thanks everyone, again.  It really means a lot.

Pixie - I do know who you are

Jackie - thank you for that.  It does make me feel better knowing that she won't remember my abscence like I will.

Shoegal - Mondays suck.  Agreed.

pixiedust84

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[QUOTE]Thanks everyone, again.  It really means a lot.<strong> Pixie - I do know who you are :)</strong> Jackie - thank you for that.  It does make me feel better knowing that she won't remember my abscence like I will. Shoegal - Mondays suck.  Agreed.
Posted by tidetravel[/QUOTE]

Yay! Win.

Well just know you can vent to this group any time!!

goheels05

Sorry Tide.  I wish I could give you a big hug right now. 

future-mrs

Sorry you're having a bad time Tide, keep your chin up girl!

sucrets4

I'm so, so sorry, girl.  I can't imagine.

I was wondering if you were pumping or not.  Do you plan on continuing to bf when you get back home?  And how are you storing the milk now?  (I just realized that I have a freezer stash and need to figure out how to transport it when we move.)

My bff pumped exclusively for 18 months, so even if you feel weird now, I'm sure your body is just adjusting to the pump.  I'm sure it'll even out and be okay.  You could always get some of that tea and stock up on oatmeal and fenugreek, as per tb. 

You should totally have a gtg with cew.  That'd be awesome!!

deepcovejackie

Tide--hearing that Holly wasn't going to remember any of it made me feel better.  It was a pediatrician that told me that, and it was true.  My daughter is a fabulous 13 year old now!

ETA:  mutual mom high five to you.  You need to live your life so your daughter can see that she can do it too.

tidetravel

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[QUOTE]I'm so, so sorry, girl.  I can't imagine. I was wondering if you were pumping or not.  Do you plan on continuing to bf when you get back home?  And how are you storing the milk now?  (I just realized that I have a freezer stash and need to figure out how to transport it when we move.) My bff pumped exclusively for 18 months, so even if you feel weird now, I'm sure your body is just adjusting to the pump.  I'm sure it'll even out and be okay.  You could always get some of that tea and stock up on oatmeal and fenugreek, as per tb.  :) You should totally have a gtg with cew.  That'd be awesome!!
Posted by sucrets4[/QUOTE]
Sucrets - I'm pumping and freezing now.  The plan was to continue BFing when I returned home.  I had been good with pumping 4 bottles a day, but the last couple of days, my supply tanked by almost a whole bottle.  Maybe I'm just getting my period or something. - hopefully it's just a temporary thing.  Taryn is getting 2 BM bottles a day right now, from the supply that I stored before I left - the rest is formula.  I am going to ship the BM that I have frozen later this week - dry ice will keep it frozen overnight.

Back to eating oatmeal again.  Fenugreek did nothing for me.

katiewhompus

*more hugs*
At least she's still little. My bil is stationed overseas right now and is in Africa for 90 days at a time, 3 weeks home for 2 years. His daughter is 4 and definitely doesn't understand that he can only talk for certain amounts of time. Last time they skyped she was just like "Hi dad, I'm busy, I'll talk to you later" and walked away.

Chin up, I'll have Katie send some hound dog vibes and get yours back on track.