Anyone else whose not a size 6 starting to get bummed??

smittojess88

Long story short I'm an "average size" 23 year old with a pretty large bust. I'm uncomfortable in bathing suits, dresses, etc. I found a wedding dress I love and feel comfortable in but the rest of wedding related shopping is bumming me out. With HM in jamacia I need to buy bathing suits, cOver ups, etc and it's really not a fun time when you're not skinny and can't fit into the bikinis at target or a bikini in general. I know everyone in America has problems with some part of their body but I feel like around weddings people can be incredibly cruel. I gained a majority of my weight due to an auto immune thyroid disease so losing it takes a ton of work and a functioning thyroid -- yet people keep saying "you should be in the best shape of your life" everytime my wedding gets brought up. My mom has said some hurtful things which I gues adds to it I'm just wondering if anyone else is getting bummed out and/or tired of hearing about it? FI keeps saying all he wants is to be married and have a week alone together, he will love me regardless of what I'm wearing, etc which definitely helps. Just curious/semi vent!

L&J2012

Keep in mind that your FI loves you the way you are! Don't change because people have this "ideal" vision in their heads. You are beautiful and perfect just tr way you are. That being said, I am somewhere around a size 8 with a 34DD bra size. I dread going shopping because, even though I consider myself pretty average, because of my boobs it is sooo hard to find tops that don't make me look awful. I used to be 40 pounds heavier, and shopping was frustrating then, but at least I was a little more proportional. It's frustrating because I see all these cute tops but I know that they'd make me look bigger than I am or just plain lumpy. My body image issues haven't completely gone away, and sometimes I feel like I look as heavy as I did 40 pounds ago. I always worry that people will think I'm all flabby Again, my advice to you is to just be confident in yourself and know that there is no ideal weight for a wedding, that no matter how you look your FI will think you're beautiful and you will be married to him at the end of the day!

LOTON01

The most important thing about your body is that you are comfortable in it.

I'm no stick figure. I generally were a size 8 or 10 however I am very curvy. I don't wear bikini just because I don't want to be uncomfortable and I would be.

Don't let anyone say anything hurtful to you. FI loves you and loves your body otherwise he wouldn't want to spend the rest of his life with it.

L&J2012

Didn't finish that second paragraph because my phone only let's me type so much... I still have some loose skin, especially in my boobs, so I worry that there's loose skin elsewhere and people will wonder why I'm wearing a bikini. FI thinks I'm crazy haha.

Ash61612

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[QUOTE]Didn't finish that second paragraph because my phone only let's me type so much... <strong>I still have some loose skin, especially in my boobs, so I worry that there's loose skin elsewhere and people will wonder why I'm wearing a bikini.</strong> FI thinks I'm crazy haha.
Posted by L&J2012[/QUOTE]
I feel the same way. I lost 50 lbs a couple years ago and am not as toned as I would like to be and don't always feel confident in a bikini.<div>
</div><div>I agree 100% with what everyone has to say. There is nothing sexier then loving your own body and feeling confident. I am pretty sure if you asked women in a variety of sizes, they are going to find flaws with themselves. Society makes it hard on women to love themself because they push the stick figure as being what women should look like when that isn't realistic for a lot of people. As long as your FI loves you, which I am sure he does, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. Believe me, I know that is easier said then done. </div>

smittojess88

Thanks for the encouragement ladies I generally can keep a good attitude and feel good about myself but I feel like the wedding related stuff just has brought up alot of issues. I'm glad I'm not alone though! I am so incredibly thankful FI is so supportive for sure.

kelsey+brandon

I think despite what you feel like you should be wearing on your honeymoon, there's nothing prettier and sexier than someone who feels confident. If that's in a one piece, then it's in a one piece. No one is going to look at you and be like, umm...why is she wearing that type of bathing suit. 

We are all our own worst critics, but we're lucky enough to have FIs who love us for who we are and no matter what size we are, they think we're beautiful. I understand wanting to lose weight, but don't let those nay-sayers get you down. You're the one getting married and who cares if you'll be in the best shape of you life...you'll be the happiest you've ever been and that's all that matters.

And with all that said...I think bathing suit shopping at any size is a PITA. To find a bathing suit top that fits me properly has never happened. I need a suit with underwire in order to not look like I have huge ugly blobs for boobs, but then the bands never fit, so I have to tie all these nots in the back of my suits. It looks so stupid. So just know you aren't alone in the clothes shopping is a struggle category!

Elizabeth80

I haven't been a 6 in several years. I am curvy, 38DD, and plus size by today's standards. I am daily learning to fall in love with who I am internally and on the outside.  FI looves my coke bottle bod and not to be cliche but pp's are right that's all that matters! We are hitting the beach for the HM and I plan to find some sexy beach gear (for me it won't be a two piece) but it will be hot! Gotta work the assets God gave you

You're gorgeous and don't let the insecurities that others may have limit you in your beauty. It's your big day and you are gorgeous and will look incredible!!

CvilleClaire

Stop looking for bathing suits at Target!!!

I wore cheap suits when I was a teenager, but gave them up a long time ago.  I'm a size 2 and I won't wear those suits anymore.  Cheap bathing suits are cut cheaply.  They're going to use fabric in the most economical way.  The legs are always cut too high and the seat is always too skimpy.  Don't eve get me started about the tops being made for women with no breasts. If you want to feel great in a bathing suit and you don't have a boyish body, go to a better store.

I swear by Calvin Klein, Tommy Bahama, Ann Cole, and DKNY bathing suits.  They're expensive (compared to Target), but they are better quality with better cut/design than those cheap suits.  It's worth it.

Lord & Taylor seems to have most of the better brands.  Check them out: http://www.lordandtaylor.com/eng/womensapparel-swimwear-lordandtaylor

laurabub

I am a size 8 and 36DD....I am thinking about getting a one piece or tankini...Have any of you ladies had any success finding a suit that is cute in these styles that is actually supportive?  I am DREADING going swimsuit shopping.

kks4471

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[QUOTE]Stop looking for bathing suits at Target!!! I wore cheap suits when I was a teenager, but gave them up a long time ago.  I'm a size 2 and I won't wear those suits anymore.  Cheap bathing suits are cut cheaply.  They're going to use fabric in the most economical way.  The legs are always cut too high and the seat is always too skimpy.  Don't eve get me started about the tops being made for women with no breasts. If you want to feel great in a bathing suit and you don't have a boyish body, go to a better store. I swear by Calvin Klein, Tommy Bahama, Ann Cole, and DKNY bathing suits.  They're expensive (compared to Target), but they are better quality with better cut/design than those cheap suits.  It's worth it. Lord & Taylor seems to have most of the better brands.  Check them out: <a href="http://www.lordandtaylor.com/eng/womensapparel-swimwear-lordandtaylor" rel="nofollow">http://www.lordandtaylor.com/eng/womensapparel-swimwear-lordandtaylor</a>
Posted by CvilleClaire[/QUOTE]

Totally agree with this.  I just purchased 2 swimsuits from Victoria's Secret, and love them!  They have better support for the top, and have better bottom coverage available.  I'm a size 8, and am now getting comfortable in my own skin.  Confidence is key!

MichelleAG05

I bought a suit from VS lately and I think I bought the wrong size top.  FAIL! 

I had a serious freak out yesterday about my weight and decided to stop eating.  (eyeroll).  Just kidding - I've already eaten a handful of protein rolls this morning. But I am going to stop thinking I can eat "just half" of something fried and really start having more salads, grilled chicken, etc.

CvilleClaire

Strange diet tip:  Start getting picky about the SOURCE of your food and you'll stop eating all the crap.

Read The Omnivore's Dilemna.  It's a good read and it'll make you look a lot of the food that's bad for you in a whole new light.

The book:
http://www.amazon.com/Omnivores-Dilemma-Natural-History-Meals/dp/1594200823

The quick summary:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Omnivore%27s_Dilemma

A short piece from a PBS show:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oV6z_ANDvdY


A longer video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFpjskn3_Pc

smittojess88

The knot is being difficult and wont let me quOte but I definitely learned a few years ago to spend the money on a better bathing suit. Victoria's secret doesn't fit me, but we have a store called everything but water and they carry multiple brands of "better suits" and that's where I go but it isn't fun to spend over $100 on a suit. I just meant its hard to be out in stores and see bikinis at every store and know its not even worth trying one on. Thanks again for all the supportive comments, I'm definitely leaning to be comfortable in my skin - it just enrages me how society alone portrays normal and can make people feel. But I digress.

sweet_melissa81

I second not getting a cheap swimsut. I would go for a middle of the road pricewise swimsuit.

I am a smaller girl with practically no boobs and I have a lot of hang ups about my body. I have stretch marks ( I got them during puberty) on my hips that can't be concealed by bikini or a once piece for that matter. There is nothing I can do about it. I'm also getting varicose veins (thanks mom!), so I feel super self conscious about showing my legs off.

So, even the smaller girls don't always have it easy!

peachykeen26

Okay-I seriously get this. I have been told from a yound age that I am too fat and/or I weigh too much. And that "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." So, I starved myself, and have done so many yo-yo diets.
Now, I have gained back the 35 lbs I lost- I am depressed about it. We keep looking at honeymoons and its hard because I want to be in a bikini but my belly and thighs and butt are too big.
So, then I thought tankini. Yuck. So then I thought well maybe we just don't need to go on a honeymoon that doesn't require clothing.
Then, I look around and see all these other ladies wearing cute clothes that are my size and I think- man I could have it going on. But, I don't. So, I think I am frumpy AND not good enough looking.
However, FI still wants to tear my clothes off, maybe because it's been such a long time, but still.
As long as FI still wants me, I feel better. Though, because my parents have always told me that I am too fat or weigh too much, I don't like to look in mirrors. I have a hard time with the boudoir I just did, but I K now that FI is gonna just die when he sees it.
But, trust me- I am a short and wide model and it's not going to change. It's genetic as well as having been brought up on noodles and bad food because thats all I would eat.
I get it- i do.
I am in the best shape of my life- good job, good family, in love, and getting married to my one and only.

diamondx423

Never, ever, ever look at Target for a bathing suit if you're over 12 years old. It will not fit you right.

I also have to go to a specialty store because I have monster boobs (34DDD) and if I buy something not based upon my cup size/doesn't have underwire I look like a moron, and I need to buy 3 sizes up just to try to cover the girls! I don't wear bikini's, too many body issues, but do stick with a tankini because a one-piece just never looks right.

This is the store I shop at, California Sunshine (clicky)

kelsey+brandon

JCrew actually has a lot of really cute one pieces and they have D-cup sizing as well.

(and they're all 20% off right now!)

http://www.jcrew.com/womens_category/swim/onepiecetanks.jsp

acaponi87

Aww I always buy my bathing suits at Target

Maybe I'll have to try VS for one for our HM! I have a big butt so we'll see if one of those will be a bit more flattering than Target.

Fact: I have to get small tops and large bottoms lol

Elizabeth80

This was so encouraging PK!!

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[QUOTE]Okay-I seriously get this. I have been told from a yound age that I am too fat and/or I weigh too much. And that "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." So, I starved myself, and have done so many yo-yo diets. Now, I have gained back the 35 lbs I lost- I am depressed about it. We keep looking at honeymoons and its hard because I want to be in a bikini but my belly and thighs and butt are too big. So, then I thought tankini. Yuck. So then I thought well maybe we just don't need to go on a honeymoon that doesn't require clothing. Then, I look around and see all these other ladies wearing cute clothes that are my size and I think- man I could have it going on. But, I don't. So, I think I am frumpy AND not good enough looking. However, FI still wants to tear my clothes off, maybe because it's been such a long time, but still. As long as FI still wants me, I feel better. Though, because my parents have always told me that I am too fat or weigh too much, I don't like to look in mirrors. I have a hard time with the boudoir I just did, but I K now that FI is gonna just die when he sees it. But, trust me- I am a short and wide model and it's not going to change. It's genetic as well as having been brought up on noodles and bad food because thats all I would eat. I get it- i do. I am in the best shape of my life- good job, good family, in love, and getting married to my one and only.
Posted by peachykeen26[/QUOTE]

KrisKenny

I feel the same way about my body. I am a size 8/10 with a small chest, small(er) waist, and BIG butt. My FI says my butt is one of the first reasons he asked me out.

FI loves me for who I am and the way I am now. I am trying to lose some weight, but I know if I don't, his love won't change. Even with my size (not the best hips,thighs,stomach) FI still would like to see me in a bikini. I think I might purchase one for our HM. Especially seeing how we won't know anyone else there - who cares what they may say/think.

Megbo2012

I wore a one piece on Monday and I'm wearing one again today.  I look sexy as hell in that one piece.  Nothing wrong with a one piece.  Wear what you want and don't feel forced to wear/not wear something because of social stigmas.

littleluckypenny

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[QUOTE]Long story short I'm an "average size" 23 year old with a pretty large bust. I'm uncomfortable in bathing suits, dresses, etc. I found a wedding dress I love and feel comfortable in but the rest of wedding related shopping is bumming me out. With HM in jamacia I need to buy bathing suits, cOver ups, etc and it's really not a fun time when you're not skinny and can't fit into the bikinis at target or a bikini in general. I know everyone in America has problems with some part of their body but I feel like around weddings people can be incredibly cruel. I gained a majority of my weight due to an auto immune thyroid disease so losing it takes a ton of work and a functioning thyroid -- yet people keep saying "you should be in the best shape of your life" everytime my wedding gets brought up. My mom has said some hurtful things which I gues adds to it I'm just wondering if anyone else is getting bummed out and/or tired of hearing about it? FI keeps saying all he wants is to be married and have a week alone together, he will love me regardless of what I'm wearing, etc which definitely helps. Just curious/semi vent!
Posted by smittojess88[/QUOTE]


I wanted to cry reading this because I know exactly what you're going through.  I too have a thyroid condition and since being diagnosed with it (and taking the meds), I put on 30 pounds in a year and can't get rid of it AT ALL.  Because of my condition, it's extremely difficult to lose weight, and I'm constantly reminded of it by my family, as they are all extremely thin.  I dread clothes shopping, and I fear swimsuits because of the weight and I'm very top heavy for my height. 

I'm glad your FI loves you for you.  I know we all want to change something about ourselves, but FI's love is truly what matters. 

diamondx423

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[QUOTE]I wore a one piece on Monday and I'm wearing one again today. <strong> I look sexy as hell in that one piece.</strong>  Nothing wrong with a one piece.  Wear what you want and don't feel forced to wear/not wear something because of social stigmas.
Posted by Megbo2012[/QUOTE]

You're adorable. I look like I crapped my pants in most one pieces because I have no butt and too big boobs. If I looked sexy as hell in a one piece I'd rock it too.

laurabub

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[QUOTE]Never, ever, ever look at Target for a bathing suit if you're over 12 years old. It will not fit you right. I also have to go to a specialty store because I have monster boobs (34DDD) and if I buy something not based upon my cup size/doesn't have underwire I look like a moron, and I need to buy 3 sizes up just to try to cover the girls! I don't wear bikini's, too many body issues, but do stick with a tankini because a one-piece just never looks right. This is the store I shop at, California Sunshine (clicky)
Posted by diamondx423[/QUOTE]

Thanks for the website suggestion...they look like they have some cute swim suits!!  I am going to check it out more tonight and hopefully buy something!!

KelseyJK

I always rock one pieces. I am just so much more comfortable in them. I think I look awful in bikinis. I am about a size 8 but my chest is an A. I like one pieces with vnecks and ruffles = adds more on top and evens out my hips. Plus tummy coverage is always awesome. I always get tons of compliments on my one piece suits - I think because most girls don't think to buy them

kelsey+brandon

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[QUOTE]Aww I always buy my bathing suits at Target :( Maybe I'll have to try VS for one for our HM! I have a big butt so we'll see if one of those will be a bit more flattering than Target. <strong>Fact: I have to get small tops and large bottoms</strong> lol
Posted by acaponi87[/QUOTE]

<div>I'm the exact opposite. It's such a pain!!</div>

Megbo2012

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Anyone else whose not a size 6 starting to get bummed?? : You're adorable. I look like I crapped my pants in most one pieces because I have no butt and too big boobs. If I looked sexy as hell in a one piece I'd rock it too.
Posted by diamondx423[/QUOTE]

<div>It's a little bit of a soft spot because I went to a beach party in it (yep, it's a bathing suit) and FI's atrocious ex showed up in jeans and a weird blouse, loudly stated that she "hated that girl" (me), pushed into me while dancing with some troll and then shouted "Who wears a bathing suit like that?!" </div><div>
</div><div>I was one of the more covered up people, and I had already recieved 5 compliments on my sleek black one piece and how I had guts to wear it and could pull it off.  It still pissed me off but I have to remember that it was 100% jealousy on her part, and I honestly had nothing to be jealous about with her. NOTHING. </div><div>
</div><div>I also got the bathing suit 5 years ago at Walmart for $14.96 lol</div>

MiksChick23

I'm sorry you feel this way! Women today really get bummed when all the media shows us are air brushed and digitally edited images of "perfect" women.

Just remember, FI asked you to marry him becasue he loves you AS IS!

I have to point out though, that your subject line isn't really fair!! Even skinny people have body image issues and feel "bummed" that they're not where they want to be. I'm 5'9" and a size 4 and I am VERY self concious in a bathing suit or any tight fitting revealing clothing. I wish I could be perfectly toned and shaped like an hour glass, but I have tried to accept myself as is.

I struggle with the opposite issues that most women do - I have to eat EXTRA calories to keep weight on. I've been tested for thyroid disorders too but my drs have concluded that I just have a super fast metabolism. (I get it from my dad who is 6'2" 175) I get side-eyed and snarked at whenever I join into a conversation with women complaining about their weight because they just don't get it! I can't work out too much or I drop in weight and get asked if I eat or if I puke up my dinner. Its insulting.

I agree about the Target swimsuits! I'm what one might consider "boy-ish" in that I'm not too curvy (bummer) but they don't even fit me right! I too have to buy larger bottoms than tops unless I want half my butt showing. I bought a Lucky swimsuit and it covers a lot more and fits much much better. I think I'll try a one piece out, my most uncomfortable region is the middle, so I always want to cover that up, and maybe that will solve the problem? I hate tankinis b/c they are not made for people with a long torso!

Keep your head up, you will be a beautiful glowing bride no matter what size you are!

smittojess88

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[QUOTE]In Response to Anyone else whose not a size 6 starting to get bummed?? : I wanted to cry reading this because I know exactly what you're going through.  I too have a thyroid condition and since being diagnosed with it (and taking the meds), I put on 30 pounds in a year and can't get rid of it AT ALL.  Because of my condition, it's extremely difficult to lose weight, and I'm constantly reminded of it by my family, as they are all extremely thin.  I dread clothes shopping, and I fear swimsuits because of the weight and I'm very top heavy for my height.  I'm glad your FI loves you for you.  I know we all want to change something about ourselves, but FI's love is truly what matters. 
Posted by littleluckypenny[/QUOTE]



Thanks for sharing :) Im not glad you have the same issues, but nice to hear someone else struggling with thyroid still as many people said once you take synthroid you'll have no trouble an even though I'm a nurse I believed them. Definitely a work in progress but yes FI love is the main thing that matters :)

smittojess88

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/wedding-club-boards_june-2012-weddings_anyone-else-whose-not-a-size-6-starting-to-get-bummed?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Wedding Club BoardsForum:3ae4d68d-f10a-4dec-8810-da13c14a7b86Discussion:8d11f6f4-50d7-44a2-8644-2f0113ed41abPost:98164330-4273-4f4f-a491-5a257aaa97bc">Re: Anyone else whose not a size 6 starting to get bummed??</a>:
[QUOTE]Okay-I seriously get this. I have been told from a yound age that I am too fat and/or I weigh too much. And that "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." So, I starved myself, and have done so many yo-yo diets. Now, I have gained back the 35 lbs I lost- I am depressed about it. We keep looking at honeymoons and its hard because I want to be in a bikini but my belly and thighs and butt are too big. So, then I thought tankini. Yuck. So then I thought well maybe we just don't need to go on a honeymoon that doesn't require clothing. Then, I look around and see all these other ladies wearing cute clothes that are my size and I think- man I could have it going on. But, I don't. So, I think I am frumpy AND not good enough looking. However, FI still wants to tear my clothes off, maybe because it's been such a long time, but still. As long as FI still wants me, I feel better. Though, because my parents have always told me that I am too fat or weigh too much, I don't like to look in mirrors. I have a hard time with the boudoir I just did, but I K now that FI is gonna just die when he sees it. But, trust me- I am a short and wide model and it's not going to change. It's genetic as well as having been brought up on noodles and bad food because thats all I would eat. I get it- i do. I am in the best shape of my life- good job, good family, in love, and getting married to my one and only.
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:) this is amazing.