Engaged as a sophmore
Re: Engaged as a sophmore
I feel sorry for you. Not because you are so clueless about the world that you think there is any reason - religiously led or not - to be engaged at 15, not because you think life is as simple as picking up and moving whenever you feel like it and supporting yourself by being a homemaker - not even because you are making such a huge decision when you so clearly do not have the emotional tools to do so yet. I feel sorry for you because you believe that you serve a God with zero passion - who set you up with someone that you had to "gradually" fall in love with, whom you don't even seem to desire. I feel sorry for you that you believe that the wonder and amazement of enjoying the body of the man you love through the act of sex - all of which God created - is equated in any way with emptiness. That's like throwing one of God's greatest gifts in His face. Waiting for marriage is one thing - but you seem to believe, from what you said, that it's beneath you in general. Well then, you must know more than God does.
I realize that nothing any of us say will change your mind. Based on your condescension and the attitude that you have all the answers, it seems to me that you are just like any other 15 year old I know, no matter how "heavenly-minded" you think you may be. I do hope that you find happiness in whatever you choose, and that God gives you a clue along with this list of demands He seems to have for you.