Hi! Two months ago I was posting left and right so happily planning our wedding for next year. My mom was diagnosed with advanced metastatic pancreatic cancer in early April. It was completely unexpected. She went from being perfectly healthy to now barely being able to do much of anything. She doesn't want the wedding moved up at all, but I want her involved in planning as much as she can be. My mom, sister and I planned months ago to take off next Wednesday to work on getting Heinz Chapel for the ceremony and we were planning on dress shopping too. Well, Tuesday is her chemo treatment day and I'm afraid she won't even be up for it. I also scheduled a family photo session with our wedding photographer for this Sunday - I thought it would be really fun and good to have new pictures - but I don't know if she'll be up for that either.
One of my best friends lost her dad suddenly 6 months before her wedding a few years ago and last year FI's good friend lost her father suddenly as well just 3 months before the wedding. I couldn't imagine such a loss at the time - and though I hope my mom will be at the wedding and be healthy to enjoy it - I am now living what I thought would be unbearable.
Anyways - I miss posting and planning but maybe just talking about this will help a little. And I want to say to everyone who has experienced loss during this joyous time, I'm so sorry. Any words of advice or encouragement or experience getting through something like this would be greatly appreciated. Hope this isn't too overwhelming of a post.