Today's Confessions

marleylikeair · June 2011

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[QUOTE]One more confession: I think it seems dishonest to not tell your fiance or someone you're extremely serious with your sexual history. However, I have no history with that, so I know I don't understand. But still.
Posted by polkadot111[/QUOTE]

I actually kind of understand this sentiment. I asked BF and we shared our numbers with each other before we ever had sex.

With my ex, we shared the info very early on in our relationship as well.

Both times, it felt like information that needed sharing in order for each of us to feel we were being totally honest with the other.

That said, if your SO doesn't ask or doesn't want to know, I think it's fine not to volunteer that information.

Also, I don't think an extensive sexual history is anything to be ashamed of. Being a good person is much more important.

bethsmiles · June 2011

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[QUOTE]I have a couple more, since it's getting pretty real in here. 1. I confess that I have grown to dislike sex. A lot of time, it's painful for me (not a medical issue, though) and when it's not, it's at-best uncomfortable. I feel like I disappoint FI on a regular basis because I just don't enjoy doing it with him (but I didn't really with my ex either). When I try to talk to him about it, he just tells me that it's ok and he loves me anyway, but I know he hates it. 2. I have a very strange relationship with food which worries me sometimes. It's gotten a lot better, but somedays I feel like I can't stop eating and others I feel like I have to force myself to eat anything at all because I'm terrified of seeing the number on the scale go up, even though I know it's just a temporary rise.
Posted by Elle1036[/QUOTE]

I had to get rid of my scale because I would weigh myself every time I ate so then I wouldn't eat so that I wouldn't see the number go up. Now I just weight myself at the gym once a week.

polkadot111 · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : I can understand if the topic had come up and I willfully mislead him, that would be dishonest, but other than talking about STDs (and the fact that we were both clean), we literally have not discussed this in our almost 3-year relationship. He was married before, I've been in a couple long-term relationships, so we both knew the other had a past. I'm sorry you think that's dishonest, but really, at some point, the number does become irrelevant if you're with someone you love and you aren't saving yourself for marriage.
Posted by cu97tiger[/QUOTE]

This makes more sense now. It seemed like people didn't even discuss past relationships at all and wouldn't even be sure that both partners were clean. That's where I was a little bit confused.

Elle1036 · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : I had to get rid of my scale because I would weigh myself every time I ate so then I wouldn't eat so that I wouldn't see the number go up. Now I just weight myself at the gym once a week.
Posted by bethsmiles[/QUOTE]

That's a much better way to do things. I'm working on it. Most days, I only weigh myself once, but there are some when I just can't resist stepping on the scale every hour or so... it's not healthy.

CCO2012 · June 2011

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[QUOTE]1. I feel sick every time after I eat. Like want to throw up now sick. I also want to lay down for 10 mins till it goes away. It sucks, makes me not want to eat anything. 2. I feel really fat. I know I am not but I feel that way. Wish I would stop eating so damn much. This also doesn't help what happened last night with BF. 3. I am really really lonely. I have like 4 friends totally. That includes BF. :( I need a few more friends.
Posted by ravenray[/QUOTE]

I have Gerd and this happened to me all the time! I cut out soad (because of the carbonation), any meat fats (sausage, ground beef less than 90% lean, real bacon) and I avoid too many fried foods incase they use lard. It has really helped me a lot. Also I have tums next to my bed since the pain seems worse at night.

I also have very few friends which make my confession #1 suck even more :(

leia1979 · June 2011

FI doesn't want to know about that stuff. I only told him about my first BF (who was an a-hole pedophile wannabe) because I needed him to understand why I sometimes have mild panic attacks. But I think even that made him uncomfortable.

I haven't asked because I'm a chicken.

Edited because people posted while I was typing...
[QUOTE]I have a couple more, since it's getting pretty real in here. 1. I confess that I have grown to dislike sex. A lot of time, it's painful for me (not a medical issue, though) and when it's not, it's at-best uncomfortable. I feel like I disappoint FI on a regular basis because I just don't enjoy doing it with him (but I didn't really with my ex either). When I try to talk to him about it, he just tells me that it's ok and he loves me anyway, but I know he hates it.
Posted by Elle1036[/QUOTE]

This is me. Stop being me, Elle. It's weird. =P

I've never been too interested because of the horrible first BF mentioned above. FI is super nice about it, but I feel so bad when I turn him down. The person I was with before FI also gave me a really hard time because I wasn't interested.

lunarsongbird · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : Constant comments about my weight (which I'm working on) are the biggest thing. She is constantly negative about everything in my life. Whenever she visits she just constantly makes little digs at me. We've never had a good relationship. She's told me that she hates me, she's kicked me out of the house when I was in high school, she's thrown things at me before basically she has a huge anger problem. Her presence is super stressful for me.
Posted by bethsmiles[/QUOTE]

Boo. This makes me sad to hear. Even if she is your mom- you don't need such a negative person in your life.

My weight is also a huge issue for me. I gained 100 pounds in two years after a surgery, but everyone in my life is supportive. As I want them to be. Because honestly- If I lived a couple centuries ago when being overweight was sexy- I would actually be pretty okay with my weight. I kinda think it's nice to be a little soft- but it's society (and your mom) that tells me and you that we need to change. St00pid society and mum.

CCO2012 · June 2011

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[QUOTE]One more confession: I think it seems dishonest to not tell your fiance or someone you're extremely serious with your sexual history. However, I have no history with that, so I know I don't understand. But still.
Posted by polkadot111[/QUOTE]

I was BF's first and he does not want to know my number. I am clean and had been checked before becoming intimate with BF.

lunarsongbird · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : If he asks, I 'd tell, and I wouldn't lie. But really, his business if what I've done since the day that I met him, and the I met him with a clean bill of health. I haven't asked his, either. And if he offered that information without me asking, that's giving me information that I do not want to know. I'd really prefer him to keep that to himself.
Posted by Wrkn925[/QUOTE]

Agreed. I was tested right before Andrew. I asked him if he wanted to see the results, but he trusted me. Good thinking, Wrkn.

mookow86 · June 2011

I confess that I really don't want to do the career that I'll be in school for 9 years learning. I can see myself working in the field maybe a few years after graduation to pay off loans and save up money and whatnot, but I just don't feel passionate about it anymore.

What I really want to do is go to culinary school and become a baker. I'd love to open my own bakery but I don't know anything about business and I'm terrified of failure and losing a lot of money.

lunarsongbird · June 2011

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<div class="Discussion_PostQuote">I have a couple more, since it's getting pretty real in here. 1. I confess that I have grown to dislike sex. A lot of time, it's painful for me (not a medical issue, though) and when it's not, it's at-best uncomfortable. I feel like I disappoint FI on a regular basis because I just don't enjoy doing it with him (but I didn't really with my ex either). When I try to talk to him about it, he just tells me that it's ok and he loves me anyway, but I know he hates it.
Posted by Elle1036

[QUOTE] This is me. Stop being me, Elle. It's weird. =PPosted by leia1979[/QUOTE]

Because I'm sure that people are going to recommend them for my search for the O- and I know that I should- but have you two ever looked into toys? Or do you think an issue with something like I have....body issues. I'm afraid that I'm too big or not flexible enough to even enjoy my search for the O.
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cu97tiger · June 2011

Lunar, run, do not walk to your nearest adult store. Purchase a vibrator. Doesn't have to be fancy. Mine is almost 10 years old and cost me $20. Best investment ever.

(I guess that was a confession, right?)

Use it without your boyfriend. Figure out what works for you, then you can teach him (either to use it, or do it himself).

bethsmiles · June 2011

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[QUOTE]I confess that I really don't want to do the career that I'll be in school for 9 years learning. I can see myself working in the field maybe a few years after graduation to pay off loans and save up money and whatnot, but I just don't feel passionate about it anymore. What I really want to do is go to culinary school and become a baker. I'd love to open my own bakery but I don't know anything about business and I'm terrified of failure and losing a lot of money.
Posted by mookow86[/QUOTE]

I love what I'm doing in school but I really just want to be a SAHM, I feel bad sometimes that I don't really want to use my degree.

Elle1036 · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : Because I'm sure that people are going to recommend them for my search for the O- and I know that I should- but have you two ever looked into toys? Or do you think an issue with something like I have....body issues. I'm afraid that I'm too big or not flexible enough to even enjoy my search for the O.
Posted by lunarsongbird[/QUOTE]

FI and I haven't done much with that, because, honestly, I wouldn't care if we never developed a really enjoyable sex life. I want to do it for him, but for me, I think I could be abstinent for the rest of my life without missing sex too much.

I also think inflexibility might be contributing to my issues, so maybe I should stretch more?

And, like Leia, I have some mental hangups that were given to me by my not-so-generous ex. I'm not sure how to get past those.

loves2shop4shoes · June 2011

I'm with Tiger. Get a vibrator.

csousa1 · June 2011

1) I confess that I too have trouble finding the elusive O a lot of the time. I think it is a body image thing, because when that is worse, the O becomes more elusive. I have toys to remedy this, and have also found that woken-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night sex is pretty much guaranteed to get me off - so much hotter.

2) I also have very few friends that I actually see. They either live far away, or we are too busy, or I lost them in the divorce from my ex-BF. It makes me sad all the time and BF doesn't really get it because he is such a homebody and doesn't like dealing with friend drama - aka has cut a lot of friends out of his life.

3) I too spend WAY too much time effing around at work, especially on TK. I would surely get a talking to if anyone knew. Mostly it doesn't affect my work, but when it does it REALLY does. I have gotten better, though, since I noticed this.

4) I confess that I am terrified of going to my best friend's wedding parties this summer. My ex-BF is a GM, and I am fairly certain, although it is not confirmed by FB relationship status, that he has a GF and has for quite a while. I am so happy for him about this, but I am also afraid of her being much prettier than me and all of my ex-friends that I lost in the divorce commenting on how much thinner/cuter she is and how he upgraded. I am afraid of having no one to talk to. I am afraid of being nervous and drinking too much and embarassing myself. I am also a bit jealous that this friend's status last night was about going out with ex-BF's new GF to the movies, while I haven't seen her in over a year. I miss my friend like crazy.　5) I hate BF's friend Samantha. Truly, really dislike her, and I used to like her a lot. All of BF's and my issues that we had recently came to a head after he went out with her for HOURS for drinks to talk about her recent divorce and their friend that died, and came home way later than I thought he was going to.
I hate that she got hammered and had such a meltdown that he felt he couldn't leave her until she had composed herself, making me freak out about where he was.

I hate that she ended her marriage by cheating on her husband with HIS OWN FRIEND. I hate that she never confessed it to him, and it is only because he caught her in a lie that he ever found out. I hate that the GF of the friend that died, who was staying with Sam and her husband while she got back on her feet after his death, was kicked out of the house when Sam's ex-H found out that she knew about the cheating, and SAM is holding it against HER and won't speak to her.

I hate that she feels the need to get black out drunk all the time even though she should be past that stage of life. I hate that she let BF think that he could have done ANYTHING to help save her marriage by being a better friend and being there for her. I want her nowhere near my life OR my BF's life. But I can't dictate that, and since I went a tad BSC when everything was really bad with him and looked at his phone and kinda freaked over texts from her, I feel like I now have no right to tell him I don't like her around. I also feel like it will come across as jealousy, when it is more a case of just thinking she is bad news and I don't like her as a person. So I try to cling to the reasons I used to like her and keep the peace since she is friends with everyone BF is friends with, when deep down I really don't give a rat's ass about her life and whenever I see her on my FB news feed I can feel myself scowling.　
Woo, that last one felt good to get off my chest

Edited for a serious lack of spacing.

heyimbren · June 2011

Okay, I have two.

First, I confess that I talked to my mom 2 weeks ago for the first time in 2 and a half years. I was really positive about it, and it went well, but now I see that things haven't changed with her at all. I regret talking to her and I never want to speak to her again. But that makes me feel like a bad person, even though I know it isn't true, and I don't know how to get over that.

Second, part of the reason BF and I broke up was because of some drug worries. And I have no clue what to do about that.

ravenray · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : Agreed! I like you a lot : ) And also totally know how you feel. Especially regarding not having a lot of friends. I am the same, and have had virtually no social life for months and months... Getting re-involved in some things and starting school again has helped enormously! Altho I do feel like life is taken over by everything else. I have to be really intentional about making plans and staying in touch with people, but it is worth it. We deserve to have fun and see friends! Is there anyone that you can reconnect with that would allow you someone sort of new to talk to?
Posted by danimcg[/QUOTE]
Aw thanks girls! Problem is I live in a small town. Think 3,000 people small. I don't really connect with too many people here. And my ex-best friend broke up with me 3 months ago so I am wary of letting people into my life. But I will keep your advice in mind.
For everyone else who told me to go to the doctor, I am not really a go to the doctor kind of girl. Usually if I wait long enough problems will go away. :/ Because every time I go, they never can help me. If it doesn't I will go, just takes me a while.

ravenray · June 2011

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[QUOTE]Okay, I have two. First, I confess that I talked to my mom 2 weeks ago for the first time in 2 and a half years. I was really positive about it, and it went well, but now I see that things haven't changed with her at all. I regret talking to her and I never want to speak to her again. But that makes me feel like a bad person, even though I know it isn't true, and I don't know how to get over that. Second, part of the reason BF and I broke up was because of some drug worries. And I have no clue what to do about that.
Posted by heyimbren[/QUOTE]
? Tell us more? Anything we can do to help?

ravenray · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : I have Gerd and this happened to me all the time! I cut out soad (because of the carbonation), any meat fats (sausage, ground beef less than 90% lean, real bacon) and I avoid too many fried foods incase they use lard. It has really helped me a lot. Also I have tums next to my bed since the pain seems worse at night. I also have very few friends which make my confession #1 suck even more :(
Posted by CCO2012[/QUOTE]
I think I would die if I had to cut out meat. However, I am not sure that meat would help because when I do not eat meat and I don't necessarily feel any better.

polkadot111 · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : Aw thanks girls! Problem is I live in a small town. Think 3,000 people small. I don't really connect with too many people here. And my ex-best friend broke up with me 3 months ago so I am wary of letting people into my life. But I will keep your advice in mind. For everyone else who told me to go to the doctor, I am not really a go to the doctor kind of girl. Usually if I wait long enough problems will go away. :/ Because every time I go, they never can help me. If it doesn't I will go, just takes me a while.
Posted by ravenray[/QUOTE]

I know it seems like it will maybe go away, but if you're feeling sick after every time you eat, something needs to be done. How long has it been happening? If it's just been a few days or a week, then it's fine to wait a bit longer- could just be an upset tummy. But if it's been going on for a month or so, I'd go in. I used to hate going to the doctor, but something that is interfering with my life, I'd like to just get better. I do tend to get really nausiated from sugars. Like if I drink a giant lemonade or something or eat a big brownie. I just know my body doesn't like big amounts of sugars. However, it sounds like this is happening after EVERY meal. This is an issue to have a doctor look at...

lunarsongbird · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : ? Tell us more? Anything we can do to help?
Posted by ravenray[/QUOTE]

Second this.

IrishDreamer · June 2011

1) I was a borderline alcoholic a year or two ago, to hide the fact that i was desperately unhappy with every aspect of my life - and just couldn't deal with the self-irritation that I had let my life take such a huge hit
2) I have a lot of acquaintances - but maybe .... less than 5 TRUE friends - ones that I know when i call at 3AM to say I want to jump off a cliff (Not that this would ever happen, simply the first example I could think of)... they would do whatever necessary to help me...actually...I think I have one.... *uber sad face*
3) I hate the way I look - I'm forever changing things (my hair style, color,etc) to maybe like the way I look - I have no motivation (or anyone to work out with), to go to the gym and even though SO says he thinks i'm gorgeous, I think he's full of shiit
4) I resent my mother....a lot. She harps on me, and jumps my shiit whenever I make a big decision, and yet, she is the first person to let her life (which in turn equals my sisters' lives) go to shiit - and does NOT take care of herself or her health, and bitches when i show any sign of not feeling well, even if it's a cold.
5) I am so EFFING over listening to my mother berate my father (they are divorced) - it's been over 14 years- GET THE HELL OVER IT!!! Yes, i think my father has made many mistakes in his past, I've come to realize it's in the past, and I can't let it effect my life now. He is trying hard to make amends, and was amazing when i went up to PA - my mother needs to get off her Bitch horse....
6) I underestimate myself...a lot..... I have a bunch of people tell me how awesome I am, how they don't want to lose me at work, ever - and I just don't see it...

Gah...back to work....

CCO2012 · June 2011

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[QUOTE]Lunar, run, do not walk to your nearest adult store. Purchase a vibrator. Doesn't have to be fancy. Mine is almost 10 years old and cost me $20. Best investment ever. (I guess that was a confession, right?) Use it without your boyfriend. Figure out what works for you, then you can teach him (either to use it, or do it himself).
Posted by cu97tiger[/QUOTE]

THIS!

PolkaDotBella · June 2011

1- When I see babies, I really want one. I know now is not the time, but the bf and I talk about babies a lot and we try to figure out how we could have one now. Sadly, we haven't figured it out... both financially and becuase of my school.

2- I don't have a summer job and I'm terrified that I won't be able to find one then I can't pay my bills and I'd be screwed.

3- I'm secretly afraid that my BF's mom and sister really don't like me, though they've never said/done anything to make me think this.

4- We're hiking the John Muir Trail this summer and I'm afriad that I won't be able to complete it... I'm afraid that I'll struggle mentally and physically and it'll crush my BF if we don't complete it.

5- I secretly hope that my BF will propose on the top of Mount Whitney if we manage to complete the JMT.

heyimbren · June 2011

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : ? Tell us more? Anything we can do to help?
Posted by ravenray[/QUOTE]

Probably not. I think it's something we need to talk over more once we get the chance.

Short version, he's moved in with his friend. That's great, except I know this is the friend that likes to enjoy certain drugs with him. That makes me nervous.

IrishDreamer · June 2011

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_not-engaged-yet_todays-confessions?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special Topic Wedding BoardsForum:136Discussion:fd649263-b95f-48ee-9264-3f39f59c82e2Post:91df130f-13da-4209-9b1a-329e3f4a7412">Re: Today's Confessions</a>:
[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Today's Confessions : Second this.
Posted by lunarsongbird[/QUOTE]

Third This!

leia1979 · June 2011

To those who recommended it, let's just say that I never get there without battery-powered help. In fact, even with it, it doesn't always work.

cu97tiger · June 2011

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_not-engaged-yet_todays-confessions?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special%20Topic%20Wedding%20BoardsForum:136Discussion:fd649263-b95f-48ee-9264-3f39f59c82e2Post:1e6381d5-5808-437f-9472-a491f7a77040">Re: Today's Confessions</a>:
[QUOTE]1) I was a borderline alcoholic a year or two ago, to hide the fact that i was desperately unhappy with every aspect of my life - and just couldn't deal with the self-irritation that I had let my life take such a huge hit 2) I have a lot of acquaintances - but maybe .... less than 5 TRUE friends - ones that I know when i call at 3AM to say I want to jump off a cliff (Not that this would ever happen, simply the first example I could think of)... they would do whatever necessary to help me...actually...I think I have one.... *uber sad face* 3) I hate the way I look - I'm forever changing things (my hair style, color,etc) to maybe like the way I look - I have no motivation (or anyone to work out with), to go to the gym and even though SO says he thinks i'm gorgeous, I think he's full of shiit 4) I resent my mother....a lot. She harps on me, and jumps my shiit whenever I make a big decision, and yet, she is the first person to let her life (which in turn equals my sisters' lives) go to shiit - and does NOT take care of herself or her health, and bitches when i show any sign of not feeling well, even if it's a cold. 5) I am so EFFING over listening to my mother berate my father (they are divorced) - it's been over 14 years- GET THE HELL OVER IT!!! Yes, i think my father has made many mistakes in his past, I've come to realize it's in the past, and I can't let it effect my life now. He is trying hard to make amends, and was amazing when i went up to PA - my mother needs to get off her Bitch horse.... 6) I underestimate myself...a lot..... I have a bunch of people tell me how awesome I am, how they don't want to lose me at work, ever - and I just don't see it... Gah...back to work....
Posted by IrishDreamer[/QUOTE]

Irish, I don't think that is all that odd. While I feel like I have a lot of friends, it is impossible to cultivate many friendships to that level at the same time. Just know that you have more than one person who cares about what happens to you... and be thankful that you don't have a reason to find out how many there are right now! :)

bethsmiles · June 2011

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_not-engaged-yet_todays-confessions?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special%20Topic%20Wedding%20BoardsForum:136Discussion:fd649263-b95f-48ee-9264-3f39f59c82e2Post:1b7bd724-8753-4b6a-98c4-036b10749071">Re: Today's Confessions</a>:
[QUOTE]1- When I see babies, I really want one. I know now is not the time, but the bf and I talk about babies a lot and we try to figure out how we could have one now. Sadly, we haven't figured it out... both financially and becuase of my school.
Posted by PolkaDotBella[/QUOTE]

I'm like that too. Sometimes I'm sad that babies are 5-7 years away for me :(

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