FMIL just kept me on the phone for 10 minutes detailing the type and number of cookies she and her friends are making for the wedding. I mean, I really appreciate this and all, but I just don't care. And it's four months until the wedding. I've tried to tell FI that this is the kind of stuff that is stressing me out and making me hate wedding planning. Last weekend, we went to get a baker and florist. And FIL's met my parents. It was like the most excrutiating weekend of my life. People asking 4378294732 questions about minutiae that I just don't care about. This is really why I wanted a small wedding with a reception at a restaurant that would take care of all the details. I don't care about what kinds of cookies there are. I don't care about what kind of flowers are in the bouquet. I don't care about the 50 different types of veils. I know it will be November and it's cold outside, but I've already prepared for that. You don't need to ask me about what happens if I get cold. I don't care about decorations on a cake as long as it shows up in one piece. I don't care about the fact that my invitations don't "match" my "wedding colors." I'm just beyond the point of wanting everything to be perfect. I've been planning this damn wedding for almost two years. There is only so much of it I can take. As long as we're married at the end of the day, that's all that matters to me. I'm so close to just cancelling everything since there has only been $400 in deposits so far and hauling FI off to church.I wish people would stop treating me like I need to go all bridezilla on everyone and have everthing perfect for my PRETTY PRINCESS DAY!! If one more person says, "But it's YOUR day, and you should have everything exactly how YOU want it," I'm going to flip out. My life does not revolve around this wedding. And oh yeah, there's a GROOM here that has an opinion too, believe it or not. There are bigger and better things in my life I want to accomplish aside from having my invitations, BM dresses, flowers, napkins, and icing on fricking cookies all match. I'm sorry. That turned very long and very bitter fast. I'm going to go get a haircut and go to Christina's (CC7373) wedding now. Hopefully it will remind me of how nice everything will eventually turn out.
