Tired of the guilt trips from family, tired of people thinking of only themselves. I even had a friend of mine complain about going to the wedding of his cousin whom he is close to because she decided to have it on a Friday, like she wasn't considering her guests. Not like its in the middle of the week. He kept saying that he shouldn't have to take a vacation day for no reason. I went off on him telling him not to go if it's for no reason.
Wedding planning is no fun anymore, I guess that makes sense for me to say after being physically attacked and assaulted by my older sister yesterday after she literally went from 0 to 100 in my face screaming at me for her life's problems and because my wedding is out of state. After filing a report I reminded myself that I get to choose my family, and I do not have to answer or even feel obligated to people like her. No more dealing with drama of low lifes, people that lack social competence and grace, and I'm definitely not going to allow my parents to make me feel obligated to someone like her (even if my mother is terminally ill), and to tell me that I should again, make attempts to befriend my sister. They don't tell her to do the same, this I know for a fact, and they've been enabling her since birth. My mother even witnessed my sister attack me from behind, and she claimed she didn't see anything, so much that she didn't see how my sister threw me onto my mother who is in a wheel chair. How's that for enabling? My sister has a history of attacking people, she did this to my younger brother back in October, among the other 20 years of history, and she still hasn't paid any consequences. Well, 2 months to go before the wedding, and I'm pretty sure I don't want "family" there. They ruined other momentus occassions in my life, like my confirmation in the church, my parents and my older sister showed up to the church drunk, then came back to my home where I was preparing easter baskets for the kids to have my older sister, once again, attack me when I wasn't looking. I think I will make sure that the cops will definitely NOT show up on this special occassion, it's our wedding day afterall, and I think we deserve to have a good time, so NY here we come!