Okay, fine, you convinced me. I'll tell you all about our talk
He said he's scared because he's always been rejected, and he kind of feels like everything with us is too good to be true - so we talked about those feelings for a while, and I told him not to worry, because I do love him more than anyone I've ever known. I asked him if he wanted to get married, and he said yes, then I asked "to me?" and he said "yes." He said that he doesn't want a whole big wedding thing, and I said I don't either - so we'll probably run off to an island somewhere with like 8-10 people. He said he knows that I'm the one for him, he just didn't want to get married because everyone else was saying we should, or because everyone else is doing it. I said that I don't want to just "get married." I want to get married to HIM, because I want to spend the rest of my life with HIM (even if he has a hard time believing that.)
So when we had our first talk a few months ago, I told him that I didn't want a diamond, and that I wanted morganite, which I was sure he would promptly forget. So the other night, I said something about that and said "but I'm sure you don't even remember what I said" and he goes "morganite." And I said "you DO remember!" and then I told him that I might have the exact ring I want picked out, and if he wanted to see it, he could, and he said yes. So I told him to let me know when he wanted to see it, that there was no rush or pressure.
So even though we don't have a set timeline, I know that it will come soon enough (and less than five years from now, because he agreed not to wait that long, haha.) I feel much better about everything, and he said he does too. I think that, even though we've been living together, and he's comfortable with our whole situation, he just couldn't wrap his head around the fact that I do love him as much as I do. He's been super affectionate and loving all week, and I feel like we're both just kind of lighter with everything. Happy times
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