I'm getting married on April 5, and so far have been pretty good at reining in the anxiety. Between GAD, OCD, and being completely Type A, I expected this stomach-churning nausea and constant increased heart rate a month ago; now, after checking the weather report for next week and seeing conflicting reports about rain, and having my wedding planner drop a last minute $800 onto my father's lap (as he has been kind enough to pay for the wedding), the nerves have started in full force. It has nothing to do with FI and being married, and completely to do with my control issues.
Add the fact that I am flying to get to my wedding and the thoughts just swirl forever. We arrive on April 2, rehearsal is April 4, and the wedding April 5...
Am I forgetting something? Should I bring a jacket? What have I forgotten to pack? Will our suitcases be over the weight limit? How will I get my dress to my hotel room? What if there is no space in the closet on the plane? Should I contact everyone when they get in?
FI and I are planning on having some people over on Saturday to veg out, and then perhaps the beach on Sunday, but I have absolutely no idea how to calm myself down other than that. The usual coping mechanisms are not working. How have y'all dealt with this pre-wedding anxiety?
(Also, side note: I have been a longtime lurker, but never posted anything. I wanted to thank you all for your advice to others that I have taken to heart; it's because of y'all that my bridesmaids don't want to strangle me (as far as I know), there's no PPD, and my guests' comfort is coming first.)
“Rose, before I go, I just want to tell you: you were fantastic. Absolutely fantastic. And you know what? So was I.”