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helloliv · September 2014

Dear NEY,

It is I, Liv! My old username had a security breach so I have been reincarnated. I swear I'm not a newbie like TK says I am. I've missed you guys while they wouldn't let me post for three days!

Love,

helloliv

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Dear Headache Doctor,

I'm happy I found you. I am really hoping that the occipital nerve block works its magic and that the neuroendocrinologist and neurosurgeon agree with your plan of action. It seems that we finally might have the RIGHT diagnosis and I'm happy to be moving forward with treatment, even if that means surgery. Five years of chronic pain is too much.

Love,

Your new favorite patient

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Dear Body,

Could you just, you know, change? More quickly please? And could you calm the desire to stress/emotional eat? I'm proud of you for all that you've been doing (lifting heavier weights! running further and faster!) but I know we can do better.

Love,

Just want to feel like myself again

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Dear Money,

If you could just appear somehow, that would be super. I miss having you in my life.

Love,

Broke as a joke

labro · September 2014

Dear @helloliv,

Love your new reincarnation! Welcome back! We've missed you!

Love, LaPeanut

helloliv · September 2014

@hummingbird125 and @goldenpenguin: Please get your e-pics back ASAP so that I may gush over them!!

@southernpeach89: Maddux pictures please?

@cocobellaf: What's up with Nine West? I haven't heard about this, but definitely know that my calves wouldn't fit in that size! What a bummer.

@TwoDimes: Butterscotch cookies?? Recipe?!

@clogreeneyes: I hope you passed your test! The feeling you're describing is exactly how I felt after my LICSW exam. I'm sure you did great.

@lapeanut1018: SO CLOSE!!!

@eilis1228: Which wristlets did you get? I love those! For BMs, right?

@lmcooper86: Eeew, counter socks.

@Ollie08: I love seeing you say "H" now!

@Phira: Glad therapy is going well!

@peaseblossom55: I'm sorry you're frustrated about not trying sooner. It sounds like you guys are working at having good communication about it though.

@Swazzle: What's going on with the house??

@audrewuh: I was excited to see your name pop up!! I'm sorry things are so stressful.

@minskat30: It makes me sad that your H said that to you.

I'm sorry.

@moiramab: I want that owl in your sig.

@cu97tiger: I'm glad you're feeling awesome about yourself! I love hearing when people feel great.

@aurorarose41: I'm sorry about your car!

Peaseblossom55 · September 2014

@helloliv glad you are back! Babies will happen soon enough I'm not too stressed or worried, just bummed temporarily. Wine is my friend.

helloliv · September 2014

@peaseblossom55: Wine is the best friend ever.

Peaseblossom55 · September 2014

helloliv said:

@peaseblossom55: Wine is the best friend ever.

Yes it is!!!

audrewuh · September 2014

@helloliv HI! It's been a while, eh?

It's that time of year. It seems September is a really shitty month for me work-wise and now our lease is up, so that's just another layer to it all.

But, I can't complain too much. I'm able to travel so much more now and this whole "eff it" attitude I have towards work is suiting me well.

How are you? It sounds like your health is stabilizing??

[Deleted User] · September 2014

@helloliv Maddux is growing sooo much!!

helloliv · September 2014

@audrewuh - Yes, a long while! Now that I'm not on Facebook I miss people like you who don't come to the boards often.

Are you guys still thinking about moving to Boston? It was in the plan for 2015, right? Sounds like H now has a job, though, that may keep you there?

Where are you getting to travel? That sounds great.

I'm doing OK. The new doctor thinks that my head pain is actually caused by 1) the pituitary adenomas I have and 2) occipital neuralgia. If this is the case, surgery for both will make my pain go away, which would be incredible. Still dealing with the Cushings, but that should be resolved with surgery too. If I could lose weight that would also be awesome! (Weight gain was caused by Cushings, and the trouble losing it is also Cushings' fault.) But I'm in good spirits and happy to be moving ahead.

helloliv · September 2014

@southernpeach89: PUPPY! OMG he is so cute.

Swazzle · September 2014

@helloliv - Welcome back! We had our inspection last week and there are some issues since it's an old house and the current owner did work possibly without permits and didn't do a very good job with some of it. I'm having issues with my attorney's office right now and it's infuriating and frustrating and I just want this week over with!

helloliv · September 2014

@Swazzle that sucks. When Mo and I bought our place way back when, we dealt with similar things. The realtor was also the seller and had added square footage to the measurements and a bunch of other weird things. He was super shady. We had to deal with attorneys and whatnot to get it straightened out. It did work out in the end, though, and we loved the place! I'm hopeful for you that your attorney will get back to you and that everything will be OK. Fingers crossed!

audrewuh · September 2014

helloliv said:

@audrewuh - Yes, a long while! Now that I'm not on Facebook I miss people like you who don't come to the boards often.

Are you guys still thinking about moving to Boston? It was in the plan for 2015, right? Sounds like H now has a job, though, that may keep you there?

Where are you getting to travel? That sounds great.

I'm doing OK. The new doctor thinks that my head pain is actually caused by 1) the pituitary adenomas I have and 2) occipital neuralgia. If this is the case, surgery for both will make my pain go away, which would be incredible. Still dealing with the Cushings, but that should be resolved with surgery too. If I could lose weight that would also be awesome! (Weight gain was caused by Cushings, and the trouble losing it is also Cushings' fault.) But I'm in good spirits and happy to be moving ahead.

I don't think we're moving to Boston for a long, long time.

We ARE going on a honeymoon redo in March next year! We're going to catch a Bruins game and everything!

H does finally have a permanent job. He's working as the assistant marketing manager for a car dealership down here. This will get him the marketing experience he needs in order to e competitive in the sports world (or really any job market now). He loves it and that makes life easier. And his paycheck is finally the equivalent of mine. Which means Boston vacays and more!

I went to Cleveland two weeks ago with Elle for @lennondkc's wedding, which was AWESOME. And this weekend I'm going to Elle's for the NOLA gtg. I leave tomorrow morning and I'm so excited.

I'm so so glad that the results seem to be so conclusive! You definitely deserve a break from all the pain and discomfort. Cushings is hard, but you are a strong woman and you are beautiful.

helloliv · September 2014

audrewuh said:

helloliv said:

@audrewuh - Yes, a long while! Now that I'm not on Facebook I miss people like you who don't come to the boards often.

Are you guys still thinking about moving to Boston? It was in the plan for 2015, right? Sounds like H now has a job, though, that may keep you there?

Where are you getting to travel? That sounds great.

I'm doing OK. The new doctor thinks that my head pain is actually caused by 1) the pituitary adenomas I have and 2) occipital neuralgia. If this is the case, surgery for both will make my pain go away, which would be incredible. Still dealing with the Cushings, but that should be resolved with surgery too. If I could lose weight that would also be awesome! (Weight gain was caused by Cushings, and the trouble losing it is also Cushings' fault.) But I'm in good spirits and happy to be moving ahead.

I don't think we're moving to Boston for a long, long time. We ARE going on a honeymoon redo in March next year! We're going to catch a Bruins game and everything!

H does finally have a permanent job. He's working as the assistant marketing manager for a car dealership down here. This will get him the marketing experience he needs in order to e competitive in the sports world (or really any job market now). He loves it and that makes life easier. And his paycheck is finally the equivalent of mine. Which means Boston vacays and more!

I went to Cleveland two weeks ago with Elle for @lennondkc's wedding, which was AWESOME. And this weekend I'm going to Elle's for the NOLA gtg. I leave tomorrow morning and I'm so excited.

I'm so so glad that the results seem to be so conclusive! You definitely deserve a break from all the pain and discomfort. Cushings is hard, but you are a strong woman and you are beautiful.

I'm glad that you'll be coming to Boston! Please visit me when you do. And I'm so happy that H has found a permanent position that he loves. I'm sure that his happiness in that, plus the paycheck, make things a LOT easier.

I love that you went to @lennondkc's wedding! I think she AWed pics when I wasn't allowed to post after creating my new username. I bet that was a blast.

And thank you. I feel like I deserve a break too! And you're too sweet saying I'm beautiful. I feel bad about myself so it's nice to hear.

loves2shop4shoes · September 2014

Dear DH,

I love you and I'm sorry I haven't been around much this week. Tonight I'll be home after therapy and I can't wait for epic snuggles and nom noms together.

Love,
Wifey
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Dear Work,

I won't lie. Even though I've been super busy with all these dinners/lunches this week, it was super nice that this morning's brunch was a block from my apartment and I only had to be there at 10am.

Love,
Employee who enjoys sleeping in
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Dear Tahiti,

3 weeks!

Love,
Pasty and Stressed
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Dear Allergist,

I'm hoping to God that you'll have some news for me tomorrow. I've been battling stomach pain for so long now, and I can't figure out why. And (as much as either would suck), I'd love it if this turned out to be something as simple as lactose intolerance or Celiac Disease. Then at least I'd know what I was dealing with, and then I could come up with an effective treatment plan.

-Your hopeful new patient
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Dear Body,

Kindly get your shit together. Vomiting and having severe stomach pain for two days wasn't fun last week. And all because I had a single glass of champagne! What in the ACTUAL fuck?!? I'm tired of consistent nausea, vomiting, stomach pain, gas, indigestion, heartburn, etc.

Signed,
PLEASE fix yourself!

audrewuh · September 2014

@helloliv - Lennon's recap is at the bottom of the first page of posts! Check it out! Her photog just posted pics today and they're gorgeous. She was a beautiful bride!! @loves2shop4shoes - your body. wtf. I'm sorry you're in so much agony. Not. Cool. I hope being on a beach in Tahiti makes the cramps better.

CLoGreenEyes · September 2014

@cu97tiger, aw, that is so sad about your friend and her H. =/ It is hard seeing marriages broken by illness. My co-worker/friend and her H are in their 30's, and he has been fighting some rare form of cancer (not even sure what the primary site is) for YEARS, and they are worn out from just trying to keep it at bay. They have two daughters that I baby-sit for a lot while they are dealing with treatments, doctors, etc., and I just don't know how they do it. I'm sure they are scared every day, but they pretty much never show it.

So after watching this unfold for the three years that I've known them, I found out today that another co-worker, who is in her late 40's, has been diagnosed with lymphoma. She's the healthiest and fittest person I know, active and fun, and I just hate that despite taking such good care of herself, SHE of all people is going to face this.

@minskat30, that brutal honesty thing is a double-edged sword. I feel like it's something we all want from the people closest to us, but at the same time hearing their perspective with no filter can HURT. =/ It sounds like he is concerned for you and your health, but is going about "helping" you in the wrong way. Maybe there are some other things he could do that would make him feel like he's helping you, that would come off as supportive and helpful instead of critical? Taking walks together, shopping or cooking together, something like that?

In any case, huge hugs. Eating healthfully and staying active is so tough when you're busy, and it feels super thankless since the results never seem to happen quickly. I hope that therapy will be helpful if you decide to go that route; just having the accountability and the support may go a long way.

@helloliv, welcome back! Sounds like you are finally getting some answers (and even better, solutions!) for all the health stuff - glad to hear that! I hope other life stuff is going well, and from the sound of things I'm guessing it is!

How is your sabbatical from FB going? I was considering doing the same thing, but there's a couple people I keep in touch with primarily through FB that I am not ready to lose...Meh. Something to think about.

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Dear eyebrows,

I think I have managed to make you look passable until we can find time to go get waxed. You guys are a disaster!

Confusedly yours,

Since when did you develop a bald spot, right brow?

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Dear massage therapist,

Your hands = magic. Your opinion of psychological issues = idiocy.

Sincerely,

I stopped listening when you said, "I think depression is made up in peoples' heads," when I told you that I interviewed for a psych nurse position

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Dear local theater,

THANK YOU for putting 1776 in your next season! That is one of my favorite shows and I'm super-excited to see it live!

Love,

A theater and Revolution nerd

loves2shop4shoes · September 2014

Also, @minskat30, I am having trouble finding exactly what your H said to you, but I will say that you could gain 100lbs. and still be GORGEOUS. I think striving for a healthy body is important, and I also think it's important to strive for a healthy mind. Beating yourself up over ever pound or jiggle isn't going to give you a healthy mind. Be kind to yourself because you truly are beautiful, and are worth SO much more than the number on a scale.
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@HelloLiv, LOVE the new SN.
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@audrewuh, What are those jerks at work pulling now? Anything new?

phira · September 2014

@loves2shop4shoes I feel like, "Body, kindly get your shit together," is something I say with increasing frequency as I get older.

audrewuh · September 2014

@loves2shop4shoes, it's the same old thing. They want to see numbers, and a lot of them. They don't realize that youth ministry is different than it was even 15 years ago. They think I'm faking the numbers I already have. They don't think I work enough and that there isn't enough programming for students.

They denied my intern because they are dissatisfied with my performance.

loves2shop4shoes · September 2014

audrewuh said:

@loves2shop4shoes, it's the same old thing. They want to see numbers, and a lot of them. They don't realize that youth ministry is different than it was even 15 years ago. They think I'm faking the numbers I already have. They don't think I work enough and that there isn't enough programming for students.

They denied my intern because they are dissatisfied with my performance.

SITB: I think you need to go into your boss's office, release an enormous, stinky, lingering fart, and leave them there to suffer.

audrewuh · September 2014

loves2shop4shoes said:

audrewuh said:

@loves2shop4shoes, it's the same old thing. They want to see numbers, and a lot of them. They don't realize that youth ministry is different than it was even 15 years ago. They think I'm faking the numbers I already have. They don't think I work enough and that there isn't enough programming for students.

They denied my intern because they are dissatisfied with my performance.

SITB: I think you need to go into your boss's office, release an enormous, stinky, lingering fart, and leave them there to suffer.

I keep threatening to flick them in the eye ball.

It's so frustrating. My sr pastor things that the committee is just struggling with old model vs new model, but is taking into consideration all of my fuck ups in the last two years. My associate pastor is so frustrated that this is how I'm being treated. He told me that he and I are going to do our own thing, the right thing, and they can cut both of us loose if they want to, but we're going to do what's right for the students and the community.

minskat30 · September 2014

@loves2shop4shoes - Basically H said if I keep gaining weight, he isn't going to be as attracted to me anymore (though he has reassured me he does find me attractive now). And that we shouldn't start TTC until I get into a more healthy place. Your post made me tear up, thank you. I wish there was a support group where people who beat themselves up non-stop could go...wait that might be therapy right? How is it going for you?

@CLoGreenEyes - H really has zero filter (if it comes into his mind, it gets said). He did suggest working out together since we moved to our new home recently, which I am game for so long as I don't feel criticized. I used to go to therapy and found it very helpful but I don't know why I felt like I didn't need to go anymore when we moved. I will look into it.

loves2shop4shoes · September 2014

minskat30 said:

@loves2shop4shoes - Basically H said if I keep gaining weight, he isn't going to be as attracted to me anymore (though he has reassured me he does find me attractive now). And that we shouldn't start TTC until I get into a more healthy place. Your post made me tear up, thank you. I wish there was a support group where people who beat themselves up non-stop could go...wait that might be therapy right? How is it going for you?

@CLoGreenEyes - H really has zero filter (if it comes into his mind, it gets said). He did suggest working out together since we moved to our new home recently, which I am game for so long as I don't feel criticized. I used to go to therapy and found it very helpful but I don't know why I felt like I didn't need to go anymore when we moved. I will look into it.

Wow, @minskat30, that is so hard. I would be absolutely devastated if my husband said something like that to me. I've gained around 40lbs. since DH and I got together, and if he ever mentioned it in critical way, I'd take it really hard. I'm not nice enough to dole out gratuitous flattery. You really are STUNNING. You have a very pretty face and a very nice body. But despite what's skin deep, you're very intelligent, kind, hardworking, strong, classy, and have a lot of depth of character. And a beautiful soul makes someone way more attractive than a low BMI ever could. Skinny or fat, old or young, saggy and wrinkled or smooth and perky, you will always be beautiful because of who you are as a person.

Be kind to yourself. After all you've been through, you deserve a little kindness.

helloliv · September 2014

CLoGreenEyes said:
@helloliv, welcome back! Sounds like you are finally getting some answers (and even better, solutions!) for all the health stuff - glad to hear that! I hope other life stuff is going well, and from the sound of things I'm guessing it is!
How is your sabbatical from FB going? I was considering doing the same thing, but there's a couple people I keep in touch with primarily through FB that I am not ready to lose...Meh. Something to think about.

Hi! Yes, getting answers is good. Such a relief, even if it means brain surgery!

Other life stuff is going OK. Been feeling pretty down but getting that under control. Work is amazing -- I am in love with my job and I'm really good at it. Not to toot my own horn, but I'm really, really proud of the work I'm doing to build this program from scratch. It's very fulfilling. I'm still working a second job and I'm really hoping I can stop that soon because that's what's causing me the most stress. Dating sucks and I stopped doing it, so that's a little disappointing. I need to figure out how to meet guys that is not online.

I love being off Facebook. Yes, there are things that I super miss about it -- a lot of friends have fallen away, which is sad -- but overall I love not having it as a time-suck and I feel a lot better about myself not ever wondering how it will "look" to others (I know that sounds crazy, but I think a lot of us do it!) and not comparing myself to other people. It's really, really refreshing. I'd definitely recommend trying it, even just for a month!

minskat30 · September 2014

And now I need to close the door to my office @loves2shop4shoes because I'm about to cry. Your words and kindness mean a lot. I miss your face.

helloliv · September 2014

@minskat30: I just read your updates and man, I would be so devastated. I'm really sorry you're going through this.

I was with my ex, Mo, when I got Cushings Disease. I gained *100* pounds, and fast. He never once commented about my weight, except to tell me that I was still beautiful and that he loved me.

In stark contrast to that, my crazy ex in college told me that I was too fat at 115 lbs (I'm 5'10) and that he wouldn't have sex with me if I didn't lose weight because I was no longer attractive.

I have seen pictures of you, and you are gorgeous. I understand wanting to lose weight to feel better about YOURSELF (not for someone else) and to be healthier, but that's just plain mean of your H to say. I second everything @loves2shop4shoes said, too. You're awesome, and I really hope you don't beat yourself up too much (this coming from a person who beats herself up a lot, but still). Also, look at my weight-loss ticker. I have a LONG way to go and there are still people in my life who find me pretty at this weight. Your H needs to be more supportive. Hugs.

loves2shop4shoes · September 2014

I miss your face @minskat30, and SPOILER ALERT, I bet a lot of ugly old trolls don't get that a lot.

lavenderfields13 · September 2014

phira said:

Dear universe,

I'd like for it to be Monday night next week so I can watch the season premiere of Once Upon a Time, okay?

@minskat30 Honestly, if your blood work is good, I'm not sure why your weight is relevant. One of my dear friends is very heavy, and once her thyroid issues were taken care of, she had zero trouble conceiving (and she has the most gorgeous, healthy baby ever)

SITB
I just started watching that on Netflix because I was really bored one day. I didn't even know it was still on. I pretty much watch HGTV so I know very little about other shows lol. I'm at the point now with Once upon a time where I'm wondering how much longer they can keep the show going for. I thought it was really good in the very beginning.

Blue & White · September 2014

@swazzle OMG our house didn't have a roof permit pulled because it fell off during a hurricane (and the city decided to not REQUIRE roof permits for like...six months, awesome). This was definitely an issue getting our homeowner's insurance to ya know, actually insure the damn roof. Buying a house is crazypants, but totally worth it. I wish you the best of luck with it! EVEN if this isn't "the house" (cause our first one wasn't, and it sucked but it's better now.)

@lapeanut1018 oh god you're almost an OMH. Well a YMH compared to me.

@southernpeach89 I'm gonna be all emotional NOT at ms peanut's wedding. Ridiculous.

Dear NCIS,

I AM SO GLAD YOU'RE BACK.

Love,
Viewer

Dear Kiddos,

Please start learning. I thought you were until I went to test you and then it went to crap.

Love,
I hate test anxiety.

Dear rain,

Please stop. Or slow down. Or some shiz.

Love,
We live on a mushroom farm. With lakes.

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