I am interested to hear your thoughts on the anniversaries of bad things that happened in your life or a friend/family's life and what to do to move past them.
2 years ago, April 9th, I broke my back in an accident. For all you doctors, nurses, X-ray techs, medical professionals, it was a "burst" fracture, with broken vertebral bodies sticking out into my spinal column. Basically, I crushed a vertebrate. I felt my spinal cord vibrate during the accident. It's a miracle I was not paralyzed. Long story short, I had a major spinal surgery, fused 3 vertebrate, and neurosurgeon repaired the crushed one best he could. 2 days after surgery, I walked across the hospital room in order to get discharged, 10 days and lots of meds later, I walked 6.5 miles in a day and am now basically back to 100%. Believe me, there was a lot of fear, tears, emotions, etc in the process, but it's over. *End AW part of post*
April 9th last year, I was a mixture of a mess and pride. I was told the full recovery would take one year and I felt free! It was over. Yesterday, April 9th, I didn't even really mention it to anyone (my family was heavily involved in my recovery) but it was weighing heavily on my mind and I felt anxious and upset. I try to put the details of the accident behind me and I try to push the thoughts about it away when they come but yesterday they all came flooding back and I was just in kind of a shitty mood.
Am I always going to feel shitty on April 9th b/c this happened? Is there a way to just forget about it and move on?
I have a friend who had a terrible trauma on a particular day and she is always a mess in the time leading up to it and after.
Do you guys have "bad" anniversaries and if so, how do you deal with the negative memories? I respect y'alls opinions and would be interested to hear how have moved on from incidents that might not be remembered fondly.
Happy weekend, btw! Sorry for the downer post!