I'm sad, y'all. Not rending my garments, sobbing in the street sad, but more sad than angry or indignant or outraged. Just really sad.
I woke up at 3:30 and checked my phone. I woke DH up to tell him. He didn't believe me at first. We made it until about 10:30 and then decided to turn in when so many states were too close to call.
Wooz is not pleased. We did our electoral maps, which were kind of sad, lying on the coffee table this morning. We put the kids to bed, and then when they called New York, I tiptoed upstairs to tell her. She was almost asleep, and did that sweet, eyes-closed, sleepy kid smile, like she's already dreaming. So that's something good I can remember. DH did end up watching the returns with me once the kids were in bed.
I think the Wooz part is the worst part for me. I've lived through Bush v. Gore, and Bush v. Kerry, although I think Dubya was a freaking pro compared to the current president-elect. I'll live through this too. But I've been picturing getting her up for school this morning and saying "Hillary won!" and that's not how it ended up playing out. I wanted her to remember this as her first election, coloring in the states with me, watching them call the states for each candidate. (She was so disappointed when they called Indiana and Kentucky for Trump, and I tried to explain to her that everyone pretty much expected that, no worries.) And for her to remember almost being asleep when her mom tiptoed in to tell her about New York, and waking up the next day to find out that her candidate had won.
Lots of teachable moments coming up, I guess. And s/o, I will say I have a second grader who is well-versed in the electoral college, so that's something. (DH got home shortly before they called Arkansas, which is where he's from. When they announced it, Wooz said "I don't care, they only have like 6 or 8 electoral votes and California has 55." )
At any rate, s/o kids, that's the good thing: no time for a pity party, because there are little people who need to eat breakfast and get dressed and get to school. I was sort of thankful for not having too much time to pause and reflect first thing this morning.