Well, the ear infection is cleared up, but I still can't hear out of my left ear. The doctor has said that it can take a couple of weeks to a couple of months for the hearing to fully return and it will be slow. It's absolutely maddening. It takes all my energy to get through my work day and I basically just go to sleep when I get home. I've had to step away from some commitments, b/c if this really does take a couple of months....well, I'm trying to maintain inner peace about this.
Work is still the shit show, but I'm trying to stay in my lane, head down, and just do my job to the best of my ability. I also deleted L's number from my phone. I was replicating a pattern of "chase unavailable people" and I needed to stop doing that for myself. I think he's a wee bit confused at some of the barriers I've started putting up, buuuuuttt, well....oh well. We're just going to be work friends and I'm 100% okay with that and will follow that path. I have considered dating a lot and decided I'm just not interested in it right now. Whether it's b/c I don't feel ready or I just feel very self-centered right now, IDK, but I don't feel like letting another person in my space, at all.
I have NESTED at my home. New furniture, new rugs, new bedspread, new towels, new shower curtain...my place is finally looking like...well, I had this thought while I was looking around that I finally had the apartment I had dreamed about in high school. Single, stylish, colorful, downtown, just all the things I always thought I would have, I finally do. Teenager Varuna actually squee'd just a bit about it when I realized it. This winter is supposed to be fierce, and I have definitely created a den for myself.
Otherwise, SSDD. Once all of my new stuff is in (some of it was backordered), I want to start hosting some game nights and dinner parties again. I miss socializng outside of the bar scene.
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