I am in desparate need of advice. This is an AE because I am too asheamed to ask under my real SN.
FI and I are getting married in a few weeks and I love him dearly. But I have been having an affair with my FFIL for over a year now. I don't even know how this all happened, but it did. Now I don't know what to do.
I have know FI for ten years and FFIL has always been someone I admired and looked up to. Before FI and I got engaged I sensed an attraction but always ignored it. After FI asked me to marry his the attraction grow stronger. I love my FI and want to spend the rest of my life with him but I love FFIL too. He is an amazing person and he cares for me deeply. I always ask him if he wants me to leave his son for him but he never answers. I don't want to hurt FI but I don't want to hurt FFIL either. I want to marry FI but sometimes I feel like I could marry FFIL and be even happeir. I just don't know what to do.
The only other person who knows about the affair is my MOH and she says I need to cancel the wedding but I don't want to. She even threatened to step down as MOH if I didn't cancel the wedding or break up with FFIL. I don't feel like she's being supportive of my feeling and she doens't understand how badly I need her right now in my life. I have never been so confused.