Thursday confessions:

noelle24

I confess I've gained about 50 pounds in 3 years, and feel absolutely disgusted about it.  Granted, I was about 10lbs too thin then, but still. Which, of course, just depresses me and makes me want to run straight for the fattiest food I can find.  That's why I have a hard time understanding how someone can be so down in the dumps over 10 pounds.  I'd kill to be only 10 lbs heavier than I was.  And honestly, when friends of mine gain or lose 10 lbs, I almost never notice.  But if I think back to when I was only 20 lbs heavier than my goal weight, I was pretty depressed over that too... so I shouldn't be surprised others feel the same way.I confess that despite telling myself that I WILL stick with my workout regimen and I WILL try to eat healthier this time, I'm not sure how to find more willpower to see it through.

louisvillebride21

That would be amazing! He did rock it really hard. This is actually the second person I know to be on the show. The first was a girl I went to high school with, she was on the high school version. She failed miserably. But she ended up with a big head about it for the rest of high school. Not cool. I'm a bad friend, but Chris is sooo easy to make blush. I'm kinda hoping he does during the show, it would be so cute! Also, he is supposed to mention the program we all worked at this summer. That would be pretty cool if he does.

[Deleted User]

I confess that NL Chrismas Vacation is my favorite movie of.all.time.ever.Mine too!  I watch it every 25484 times they air it during Christmas and never get tired of it 

Audrey_03

Yeah, my sister has seen it once.... from about 8 feet away across the dining table at Easter. Easter dinner, btw, when she declined to speak directly to me or FI the WHOLE DAY because she's got a stick up her keister about something, but since she won't talk to me I have no idea what her beef is -- anyway, I digress. So she saw it from a distance, didn't say anything about the new engagement or anything until [i]after[/i] we left. Then she felt compelled to randomly say to mom, "It's one of those fake center stones that's really like 4 stones smooshed together to look bigger from a distance." I know this because the next time my mom saw me, she grabbed my hand and put her face about 6 inches from the ring to get a good look at it (at this point I didn't know what was going on) and she said, "Oh she is so full of crap! That's just one, not four." Then I asked wtf she was doing and she explained what had happened. [b]So I guess my next confession is:[/b] I feel nothing for my sister. Hate would imply some level of caring, but seriously, after 30 years of her being a pain in my posterior, she can totally go DIAF (with Dad, if it would make the two of them happy).

saschaduran

Yes Bec...join the NLEV fan club!!  The thread last night aboutFI hitting a guy on a bike explains it all.Sorry for the mixup Knot Audrey!  I don't hate you! 

buttaflai

I confess that you ladies do bring me back to reality sometimes re: weight. It reminds me that agonizing over a pound or two is really stupid.

temerityjane

I have more confessing in me: I confess that I wonder sometimes if people "like" me on P&E just because one or two of the more prominent posters took a liking to me. I confess to being suspicious of everyone's motives.I confess that some people are really effing boring, in my email, on my IM right now, on the phone, on P&E and everywhere I go, and I enjoy my smug sense of superiority.

alixzafiris

Oh I have another one. I confess that I have a HUGE fear of used books that I'm trying to get over thanks to eBay.

kikibaby

OMG, Alix, me too.  I love books, but used ones weird me out!  I tried it because I wanted to save money, but even the smell at the used book store makes me kinda... nervous or something.  I borrow books from friends and family, and that's ok, but yeah... if I don't know who's touched it, it's weird.

anna.oskar

I confess that: 1. I got called (FINALLY!) for an interview next Thursday and am so awesome that I can't imagine they wouldn't hire me.2. As soon as I get a paycheck I am going to stop asking FI's opinion on wedding things and just pay for them myself.

mandapanda78

Audrey the really weird thing is my sister used to be my best friend. She pretty much raised me because our mom was off doing god knows what.  She started getting bitter toward me when I was about 20. She told me I needed to find a "rich man to marry" because I'd "never be able to take care of myself".  That was ten years ago, but it's gotten worse since then.  And again, I hate myself that I let her get in my head. FI DOES make more money than me and he DOES take care of me to an extent (we have a much nicer lifestyle together than I would have alone) but that does not negate the fact that I lived alone- and solvent thankyouverymuch- for all of my twenties.  So why do I feel effing guilty about it?!

cdeshane

I have been trying to lose weight. Over the last 2 weeks I have been eating really healthy and drinking coffee in the morning and water all day, no more pop, and I have only lost 1 pound. I am also exercising more. I am disgusted with myself.

lyndausvi

It's almost noon and I'm still in bed in my pj's and have no motivation to change the situation.I'm in bed because our bed in is the living room right now because we do not have a/c in the room.  DH was so hot, but he did not want to sleep on the couch.  With his wisdom teeth extraction I gave in so he could be comfortable.I should have gone to the unemployement office today to file, but I'm so not motiviated I pushed it off till tomorrow.   (I did not lose my job, I just lost hours).So instead of doing something productive I've been on the knot.Someone needs to slap me.

Audrey_03

Manda, It bugs you because your brain can't use logic to make your heart not feel the hurt. It took me a decade and a *lot* of therapy to move from getting upset and heartbroken to just feeling annoyed and being able to shrug it off. *hugs* I've been there too and it sucks rhino rump, but it gets easier with time.

EmmaBride2B

I confess that it really makes me feel like shiit when people talk about how terrible they feel being 5-10 pounds heavier. I know that everyone's body is different, and that I can't possibly fathom everyone person's experience, so I really shouldn't get upset. Despite this logic, it makes me feel like a fatass because I've gained 40 lbs in about three years. Bleh.

wadingmoose

Wait.  I've got one.  It would appear that not only am I making the mortgage payments, I'm also paying for the entire wedding, our hotel room AND the honeymoon.I'm getting a little tired of this.

LaFemme86

Ring confession #1: I confess to also turning my ring upside when shopping or going through neighborhoods I'm not comfortable with. I even once took it off in the car and hid it when I was stuck in traffic in a sketchy area.Ring Confession #2: A colleague of mine gushed about how her brother bought his FI a 1 ct. ring and how he's doing so well etc. I confess that I secretly loved the moment, about a month later, when I got engaged and came in with a 1.3 ct ring. Normally I am not SO egotistical, but this one got to me.Weight Confession: I obsess about my weight and lose sleep over it from time to time, but I do nothing about it. I eat whatever I want, and don't increase how much I work out/ don't work out. I also know I am being irrational because I fit into the same jeans I've had since high school, but in my defense do weigh a few pounds more.

Soon-to-be Mrs. Vogt

Whoa Moose. That's kind of a big one.I confess that I'm already anxious beyond words about the wedding. It makes me feel like a total piece of crap. I can't focus on work, I can't remember anything, I'm biting FI's head off over the littlest things. I'm pretty sure I'm going to ruin this whole experience for myself (and possibly FI) with my worrying and anxiety.

mandapanda78

ditto Vogt. I've never been very good at calming the fuuck down and this is no exception.

cdeshane

I've gained 40 lbs in about three years. Me too. And I am just as active as I used to be, if not more. I used to think it was the BC I was on but I changed and it hasn't made a difference.

Brie2010

Ring confession: it bothers me a little that FI proposed before he had the ring, because it made a lot of people in my family think he wasn't serious.  Like, they thought it was a joke until I had an actual ring, which pisses me off, but I take what my family thinks way too personally.Weight confession: I am so fuucking annoyed that I work harder at the gym and on my diet than 95% of people and yet I still look huge in my wedding dress.  I know what the eff I'm doing, but my body is just not listening lately.  Even though I lost 50 pounds last year, because I regained 10, I still feel like a huge failure sometimes.

EmmaBride2B

Shane, I'm sorry, that must be frustrating. For me it's my fault, I've stopped exercising and I used to be so active. Seriously though, you look stunning in your signature pic.

LaFemme86

I also confess that I have become the laziest, yet most stressed perso alive since not working. I used to work a full time job, while taking 4 courses in university (worked full time, did my degree part time), all while living with DH (BF/FI at the time), owning a house, and our 2 kitties. It was a good amount of work, and I handled it well and loved it.Since moving and therefore leaving my job, I have become extremely lazy (ex: I am sitting in bed in my PJs like Lynda, knotting), but also get stressed that things aren't getting done. I could be doing it but am SO lazy. I hate hate hate this.I need a job. Now.

meriamjuicy

I confess to being 100lbs overweight.  Ugh,  I hate saying that.  I am currently on meds that make losing weight very hard and have an illness that loves to be fat.I confess I worry that FI would be less attracted if I were to lose weight.  He has seen pics of me from teenage years and while I know he thinks they are pretty he also thinks I looked like a stick.  At 5'1 , 145lbs.I confess I love temerityjane becuase she could be my younger sister's doppleganger, same sharp humor and f-u stare at the camera.  your post always make me smile!  (fyi, I am not insane)I also had a feeling of DOOM recently,  it went away after some douche bag smashed into the front end of my car turning into the wrong side of a parking lot.  (I confess I hope it's totaled and they just write me a check for the value of the car.)

lyndausvi

leFemme - It's so bad right now.  I feel like I need to go on meds.   I know work will start up again in a few weeks.  But until then I'm just so lazy.  Plus the island is so slow, so so many people are on vacation there is no one to hang out with.

LaFemme86

Yea, we've met a lot of people here, but of course everyone has jobs... so during the day my best friend is the computer. I'm developing an addiction, seriously.And we only have one car... and not to mention a language barier (which is slowly getting better as I learn more Spanish), so making friends has been difficult.It's been stressful, but I bring it on myself. It's the lack of routine I think. I'm surprised DH still puts up with me!

cdeshane

Thanks Lyndsey, so do you.

EmmaBride2B

Brie, I'm really sorry your body isn't cooperating the way you want it to, I'm sure that's frustrating. However, I think you look like a knockout in your dress.

Brie2010

Thanks, Lyndsey.  I haven't posted the most recent pics of me in it, though, and they're pretty terrible.  I can't tell if I hate them so much because I am huge, or because they are just generally bad pictures (had bad hair, big zit, weird face, saleslady took them at a weird angle).  It's motivating, that's for sure.

wadingmoose

Well, Vogt, I can't be pissed about the mortgage.  That's how we've divided the expenses and all.  But its a line of credit so every month I just throw all the money left in my account at it - which is a significant sum.But now that I'm paying for everything wedding related, that amount is dropping.  And it irritates me a little.