So, i've officially moved back home. He refuses to take any part in making things better. I explained while I hadn't been perfect by any means, that his absolute lack to admit to himself that things werent the happiest with us was killing US.
I told him what I needed from the relationship and that I didn't want to be the girl who realizes it way too late. Right now, I'm working on bettering myself, if he is in my future... only time will tell. It's been rough, i'm centering myself around some amazing friends, busy christmastime-ness and some good cookies.
Thanks girls for the advice you gave me. I will still be around a little bit, as my friends getting married soon, but not as an engaged girl sadly
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